It is with a shcock that I realised that hubby was wrong. We are NOT on day 17, but on day 25!! What a nice shocker suprise!
I have struggling the past 4 or 5 days, really struggling. Some of you will know what I talk about. I am so close to caving in. The headaches started again. I am getting 'forgetful'. Somedays I think by myself, if I have a few now, I can always quit again, whats the big deal? The big deal is, I dont want to start again, wasting money. I honestly dont feel different anymore. I did not cough before, so Im not coughing now. I snore more now than before the quit, hubby as well. I still get out of breath when I excercise because I have been basically bedridden for almost two months. Food that I loved tastes like **** now, food like seafood, asparagus, tinned mussels, etc. I am gaining weight because I eat more. I am more restless. I am NOT saving money, thats for sure. The foods that we now eat to counter the craving is more expensive than the smokes! That is just some of it, there is plenty more.
However, I dont smell, but my breath freakin reeks! I cannot stay ahead with brushing it. And I never smelled REAL morning breath before, OMG!! So, my smell is much better (worse).
All me and hubby did was exchange one baddie for another. The new baddie is more expensive and actually more dangerous. Obesity is a horrible thing, as bad as smoking. Obesity leads to diabetes, heart problems, healt problems, etc. the only thing obesity does not cause, is lung cancer. Before the quit, hubby exercised, or at least he tried to, often. Now the best exercise we get is puasing the movie, walk to kitchen, look for munchies, walk back to living room, play movie, use arm muscles to stuff face.
But still, with all that said, I still dont really want to start again. I came too far for that. I just wanted to share what was on my mind, my constant battle. Still I crave the monster, and the monster is getting closer, my defenses are getting weaker. So please, give some fire power?!