25 days... Huh?

It is with a shcock that I realised that hubby was wrong. We are NOT on day 17, but on day 25!! What a nice shocker suprise!

I have struggling the past 4 or 5 days, really struggling. Some of you will know what I talk about. I am so close to caving in. The headaches started again. I am getting 'forgetful'. Somedays I think by myself, if I have a few now, I can always quit again, whats the big deal? The big deal is, I dont want to start again, wasting money. I honestly dont feel different anymore. I did not cough before, so Im not coughing now. I snore more now than before the quit, hubby as well. I still get out of breath when I excercise because I have been basically bedridden for almost two months. Food that I loved tastes like **** now, food like seafood, asparagus, tinned mussels, etc. I am gaining weight because I eat more. I am more restless. I am NOT saving money, thats for sure. The foods that we now eat to counter the craving is more expensive than the smokes! That is just some of it, there is plenty more.

However, I dont smell, but my breath freakin reeks! I cannot stay ahead with brushing it. And I never smelled REAL morning breath before, OMG!! So, my smell is much better (worse).

All me and hubby did was exchange one baddie for another. The new baddie is more expensive and actually more dangerous. Obesity is a horrible thing, as bad as smoking. Obesity leads to diabetes, heart problems, healt problems, etc. the only thing obesity does not cause, is lung cancer. Before the quit, hubby exercised, or at least he tried to, often. Now the best exercise we get is puasing the movie, walk to kitchen, look for munchies, walk back to living room, play movie, use arm muscles to stuff face.

But still, with all that said, I still dont really want to start again. I came too far for that. I just wanted to share what was on my mind, my constant battle. Still I crave the monster, and the monster is getting closer, my defenses are getting weaker. So please, give some fire power?!

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  • You guys re doing so well and it's great that you are doing this together. My hubby and I hAve stopped together too. The on,y downside of this is tt in the past, when one of us has caved, the other one immediately caves too.

    Not sure if you guys are the same, but if so, just remember how well Mario is doing too.

    Anyhow, how about getting in some healthy snacks (nuts, seeds, fruit etc). Or get a hard, dry stick of biltong to nibble on when the utter strikes. Try drinking new drinks (for me it is all the herbal teas) and also try a little fuzzy water when you feel hungry outside of meal times. Also, try get out and do some exercise together - perhaps a long walk or a game of tennis?

    I know I have put on some weight since my quit and my plan now that I'm into month 2 is to stabilise my weight and improve my fitness. I would love a nice toned body in time for summer (when it finally arrives).

    Good luck to both of you.

  • I dont want to cave, I really really dont! I know for a fact that hubby wont start again if I cave, he almost got sick when he caved. That one smoke made him feel physically ill. Mine did not, in fact, I wanted more. So if I cave, I cave alone. And that is lonely.

    Also, biltong and nuts are huge favorites, but it is expensive, almost 3 times as expensive as smokes, and in a family of four, it NEVER lasts long!

  • Oe oe somebody mentioned biltong...:eek:

  • It is with a shcock that I realised that hubby was wrong. We are NOT on day 17, but on day 25!! What a nice shocker suprise!

    I have struggling the past 4 or 5 days, really struggling. Some of you will know what I talk about. I am so close to caving in. The headaches started again. I am getting 'forgetful'. Somedays I think by myself, if I have a few now, I can always quit again, whats the big deal? The big deal is, I dont want to start again, wasting money. I honestly dont feel different anymore. I did not cough before, so Im not coughing now. I snore more now than before the quit, hubby as well. I still get out of breath when I excercise because I have been basically bedridden for almost two months. Food that I loved tastes like **** now, food like seafood, asparagus, tinned mussels, etc. I am gaining weight because I eat more. I am more restless. I am NOT saving money, thats for sure. The foods that we now eat to counter the craving is more expensive than the smokes! That is just some of it, there is plenty more.

    However, I dont smell, but my breath freakin reeks! I cannot stay ahead with brushing it. And I never smelled REAL morning breath before, OMG!! So, my smell is much better (worse).

    All me and hubby did was exchange one baddie for another. The new baddie is more expensive and actually more dangerous. Obesity is a horrible thing, as bad as smoking. Obesity leads to diabetes, heart problems, healt problems, etc. the only thing obesity does not cause, is lung cancer. Before the quit, hubby exercised, or at least he tried to, often. Now the best exercise we get is puasing the movie, walk to kitchen, look for munchies, walk back to living room, play movie, use arm muscles to stuff face.

    But still, with all that said, I still dont really want to start again. I came too far for that. I just wanted to share what was on my mind, my constant battle. Still I crave the monster, and the monster is getting closer, my defenses are getting weaker. So please, give some fire power?!

    Awww, it sounds like you're having a really poo time :(

    I can relate to the "not feeling any better". I just thought it was because I'm young and didn't smoke much, but I didn't feel a difference in breathing or coughing, I never smoked in the house or my car anyway, my energy levels were low and I was gaining weight.

    So after the initial "yayyyy, I've quit smoking" had worn off, it felt a bit crappy really :(

    I think how you're feeling is normal and you just have to ride it through. You DO begin to feel imrpovements in your overall energy levels as you get further and further from your last cigarette and you also gain some more natural confidence as well :) You just have to stick with it, that's all.

    Could it be an idea to minimize the amount of snacks/unhealthy eating? Whilst I have definately put on some weight and have been snacking more, I don't feel as though it is costing me more than smoking and I don't feel incredibly unhealthy for it. Maybe you could try swapping some of the more unhealthy foods for fruit and veg?

    I started the gym recently, which I would recommend to all after reaching the stage where you're feeling a little more positive in yourself. It is helping me to lose that excess weight AND has given me a boost of energy too.

    I hope that you can stay strong and that the fight starts to become easier for you very soon.

    Just please remember that this WILL get better! xxx

  • Biltong is a South African delicacy - basically dried meat - like beef jerky but better apparantly. Not something I like but it's great for teething babies!!!

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