Guess I'm back here now I slipped last night and had a few a cigs. My bad. I went out for a couple of hours and one of those I was out with is a smoker & I battled with myself for half hour before caving. Not happy. However, I'm gonna beat this damn thing and it hasn't deterred me but I'm feeling rather weak in my resolve. It's like a battle that will never be truly won because I feel like I'm always going to be fighting this thing forever
Pls tell me that one day the fight becomes easier and it won't seem such a battle anymore. I'm trying so hard to keep determined but at this precise moment in time I feel it's just easier to resign myself as a smoker and not keep fighting it. I wish to God I'd never started.