Hello! For a week now I've been reading these forums and they helped me get over cravings that were peaking, thanks!!! Today is day 12 which has included two weekends for me!! Alcohol, tea and coffee, after meals, in the car and on the phone and EVEN at the pub outside with all the heavy smokers, has been so much easier than I expected!!!! What gets me spooked is from about 6pm onward until i eventually just go to bed!!! I should feel good right? Well, I don't! I don't even feel slightly proud of myself? I don't feel hopeful, positive, encouraged, winning, none of those emotions I was expecting and that others say I should. Infact friends and strangers have appeared more enthusiastic and proud of me than me!!!!! My husband, son and daughter have barely mentioned it :confused:
I went for a run at gym and didn't feel any different or better than normal.
I haven't had a hacking lung clearing cough.
I feel normal except for one thing.....my smokes are missing so I feel like I am just floating along quietly waiting for something, like this isn't really real and I can't really see myself as a never having another puff again, as much as I try to picture it, it's just not feeling real?!
I thought first 3 days were meant to be worst? I know I know I should keep going and fighting the demons....that's what I keep telling myself over and over and over but they are friggen loud and annoying and I'm just a peace-loving hippy
Thanks for letting me vent!