Day12 I just joined here

Hello! For a week now I've been reading these forums and they helped me get over cravings that were peaking, thanks!!! Today is day 12 which has included two weekends for me!! Alcohol, tea and coffee, after meals, in the car and on the phone and EVEN at the pub outside with all the heavy smokers, has been so much easier than I expected!!!! What gets me spooked is from about 6pm onward until i eventually just go to bed!!! I should feel good right? Well, I don't! I don't even feel slightly proud of myself? I don't feel hopeful, positive, encouraged, winning, none of those emotions I was expecting and that others say I should. Infact friends and strangers have appeared more enthusiastic and proud of me than me!!!!! My husband, son and daughter have barely mentioned it :confused:

I went for a run at gym and didn't feel any different or better than normal.

I haven't had a hacking lung clearing cough.

I feel normal except for one thing.....my smokes are missing so I feel like I am just floating along quietly waiting for something, like this isn't really real and I can't really see myself as a never having another puff again, as much as I try to picture it, it's just not feeling real?!

I thought first 3 days were meant to be worst? I know I know I should keep going and fighting the demons....that's what I keep telling myself over and over and over but they are friggen loud and annoying and I'm just a peace-loving hippy :p

Thanks for letting me vent!

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  • So I left the evil nagging demonic smoking urges at the door and went into the shopping complex which is smoke free zone, but where I normally buy my smokes! I opened my purse and there was all this cash, STILL there, so I spent it!!!! I haven't used face creams ever, so thought I would lash out and pamper myself in an effort to feel better....hoping some wrinkles and smoke lines may smooth away secretly too!! Also, I booked in for a quick neck, shoulder and arm massage for the morning before work, the same cost as a packet of smokes...how luxurious :o:o and could be an affordable de-stress technique during these first few weeks! Then I bought a $5 scratch-it to take to work tomorrow to keep me busy after lunch! I never stopped at other shops before, always made a v-line to the smoke counter to hand over my money...idiot:eek:

    Now to cook dinner, take a shower and use my new face cleanser and night cream, watch some TV and go to sleep ready for Day 13!!! Starting to feel a little better and a little prouder that I beat it over and over and over again today

  • Hiya Hippy and welcome :)

    You're doing really well, and what you're feeling really is normal!!

    My first few days were, well surreal really. Was on patches and gum which helped loads, but like you said it was a floaty feeling!!

    There isn't really a right or wrong way to feel though - although you should be proud of yourself 'cos you're doing brilliantly :)

    Your lungs will clear, I didn't get a cough for a couple of weeks, some people never get one but they're still clearing - just less dramatically!! Would rather that than coughing into a supermarket carrier bag, which I did 'cos the cough made me sick :/

    But how fab is it that you've got all that extra "free" cash? And that you're treating yourself with it!!

  • Thank you Gemma-Lou ;)

    Yes "free" $$$$$ is awesome!!! At first I panicked, wondering which bill I had neglected to pay haha!! Thank you for your comments and support....and I like your little quote at the bottom of your name....freeing yourself is a good perspective, think I'll hijack that one in my head!!!

    Time to open my face creams... a little weird opening plastic wrap off a small box which does NOT contain ciggies!!!! Thanks again, off I go to not only smell good now, but attempt to look good too :D

  • Well done hippy! With that attitude you are halfway there already!

    Welcome to the forum - there are loads of friendly, encouraging people here.

    Sarah

  • Thank you Gemma-Lou ;)

    Yes "free" $$$$$ is awesome!!! At first I panicked, wondering which bill I had neglected to pay haha!! Thank you for your comments and support....and I like your little quote at the bottom of your name....freeing yourself is a good perspective, think I'll hijack that one in my head!!!

    Time to open my face creams... a little weird opening plastic wrap off a small box which does NOT contain ciggies!!!! Thanks again, off I go to not only smell good now, but attempt to look good too :D

    You're very welcome :)

    I love the idea of freeing myself, in my previous quits it's always been "giving up" something that I enjoyed and that dooms it really - but freedom is a good thing :D

    You're going to find your skin improves loads too :D It's amazing how much better you look in a short time!!

  • Hippy - It sounds like you are doing great!!!! I am on day 24 and have not had a cough yet either. Good thinking trying some different things rather then reaching for the ol' cigarette. You replaced the cigarette, which makes you look 10 years older then you really are, to a face cream that will restore a fresh younger look to your skin! That should make you feel good about yourself! :D

  • Thanks Melzee and SJt13 as well. Yes it's a great site, we all know where the other is coming from, has been and are headed.....a perfect support group!!

    In in Australia, so while you're getting ready to finish your day, I'm just up to begin mine! right now I'm off to replace my pre-work coffe and smokes with a massage!!! Have a great, strong and successful day everyone :D

  • Enjoy the massage and have a great day!

  • Right now I'm off to replace my pre-work coffe and smokes with a massage!!! Have a great, strong and successful day everyone :D

    No way would I want to go to work after having a massage!!! I would want to take a nap! :p Enjoy - it is well deserved!

  • Melzee, I'm a tattooist, so it's much much better for everyone if I go to work relaxed hahaha :D

  • Melzee, I'm a tattooist, so it's much much better for everyone if I go to work relaxed hahaha :D

    Lol the last thing anyone wants is a stressed tattooist, or one who's going to make mistakes.

    *Is a bit tempted*

  • Glad that you're battling through Hippy! :)

    Sometimes it can be really difficult, especially when you feel as though the benefits aren't there (no difference in breathing, energy levels etc), but the feeling of pride does come along slowly and you will start to notice minor improvements over time. You just have to fight through the tough times!

    One of my favourite (and most unexpected) feelings so far has been confidence. Not so much that you would really notice but I can feel it in me. And I am generally happier and more relaxed, which is great! :D

    Well done so far. Keep up the good work! x

  • Melzee, I'm a tattooist, so it's much much better for everyone if I go to work relaxed hahaha :D

    :eek:

    In that case - please get a massage everyday until the no smoking jitters go away.

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