Day 12 stressed and annoyed

[nsd_user663_54719]

So annoyed and stressed today due to family problems, I really want to have a fag now!!!

I've not wanted one recently until now!

Babs x

[nsd_user663_53202]

Babs - have a proper rant!

What's going on and exactly how are you feeling?

[nsd_user663_54332]

Oh Babs these things do pick the worst time dont they?

Don't have a fag though 'cos if you do you'll still have your problems *and* you'll feel rubbish for messing up your quit - and you are doing so well!!

Do anything, rant, shout, heck even get NRT gum as a last resort but don't smoke!!

My last quit ended because of a row with my dad, I was going to have "just one or two" (a mix of a sudden craving and revenge 'cos he hates - hated now - me smoking) and I was on a pack a day before I knew it!!

[nsd_user663_54852]

Babs dont do it... you know you would be soooo sooooo disappointed. Keep posting and reading on here and it will pass.

Day 10 for me so still hot on your heels

Donna Nonny

[nsd_user663_54719]

I know I'll be so annoyed and disappointed in myself and I know I don't actually want to do it!!

The reason for me wanting to do it is the reason for me not wanting to do it!!!!!!!! :mad:

My mum is currently going through treatment for lung and bone cancer however, she had a hospital appointment today and they've told her they can't give her chemo on Monday due to her losing so much weight!! I'm angry at her for not listening to me when I try and get her to eat something but I'm also upset by the fact that by not getting her treatment when she should be getting it that it could make it worse!!!

We know its not cureable that it's only treatable but without treatment........

It's the biggest reason for me quitting but at the same time it's not the easiest time for me to quit but then again when is an "easy" time to quit!

Argh I'm sooooo stressed just now!!!!!!

Sorry

Babs x

[nsd_user663_4522]

you choose your friends but not your family never as there been a truer statement spoken, our addiction looks for excuses to light up again..dont give it one...we TWELVE days in love...remember day 1, 2 & 3 and how appaling that was....just think how you are coping now with how you would have coped in those dark days and you will you make the right decision....me I am off to get a kit kat chunky

[nsd_user663_4522]

P.S. I wrote that last post before I read your latest one where you have opened up a bit, sounds terrible whats happening but you are proving so strong right now....you just need to believe it yourself....

[nsd_user663_54719]

I am off to get a kit kat chunky

Haha! This statement just made me laugh....I was just sitting thinking hmmm what can I eat and all I can think of is a kit kat chunky!!!

Did you know that there is new flavours out?

Babs x

[nsd_user663_54878]

Hey Babs,

I understand what you are going through but please stay strong and don't give in! You have come this far - we are nearly in week 3! I definitely want to see you in there and I think your mum would want to see you in there too

Big virtual hugs

xxx

[nsd_user663_4522]

Oh yes I have eaten numerous amounts of all of them hahahaha

[nsd_user663_54719]

Thanks guys...I really am sorry for a rant! I'm ususally the type of person that doesn't moan or let things out - I suppose it's easier being behind a screen! :confused:

Thanks again for listening (reading!)

Babs x

[nsd_user663_54878]

I've been moaning / ranting today too so know what you mean! But that's what we are all here for.

Here's to the rants!

[nsd_user663_53202]

I know I'll be so annoyed and disappointed in myself and I know I don't actually want to do it!!

The reason for me wanting to do it is the reason for me not wanting to do it!!!!!!!! :mad:

My mum is currently going through treatment for lung and bone cancer however, she had a hospital appointment today and they've told her they can't give her chemo on Monday due to her losing so much weight!! I'm angry at her for not listening to me when I try and get her to eat something but I'm also upset by the fact that by not getting her treatment when she should be getting it that it could make it worse!!!

We know its not cureable that it's only treatable but without treatment........

It's the biggest reason for me quitting but at the same time it's not the easiest time for me to quit but then again when is an "easy" time to quit!

Argh I'm sooooo stressed just now!!!!!!

Sorry

Babs x

Sounds very distressing and extremely frustrating. I can understand you feeling stressed, and angry too. I'm glad you've told us a bit more about what's happening.

Sometimes life is so bloody intense it seems impossible that you are still actually alive. And yet you are. One of the problems with quitting is the feeling of anxiety that can come from no longer having the smoking crutch to lean on. That combined with unfamiliar and distressing experiences happening in your life can create a strong stimulus to have a smoke.

The truth is that, as tough as it may sound, you can get through this without smoking. It is hard, and there is no way of avoiding that. However, you can handle it. Take it one step at a time, one minute at a time if necessary, and bit by bit you will get through this.

Keep reading and posting, we are all rooting for you.

[nsd_user663_54852]

Babs I am so so sorry to hear about your mum . I can only imagine that it is terrribly stressful for you and your family.

Hang on in there and surround yourself with family and friends and chunky kitkats. When you feel like it you know that you can pop back in here for tons of virtual hugs and help.

vitual hugs on their way to you

Donna /Nonny

[nsd_user663_54719]

Again, just want to say thanks to you all! Your all fab! I know that I will get through this - it's just a hard day today!! Just need to think that on Monday in only 3 days, I will be on week 2!

Babs x

[nsd_user663_53202]

Your sounding much more positive Babs, nice one! You had a rant and took advantage of the support, well done (It's almost frightening how supportive people are on here!). Good luck over the next few days, and keep posting.

[nsd_user663_54719]

Your sounding much more positive Babs, nice one! You had a rant and took advantage of the support, well done (It's almost frightening how supportive people are on here!). Good luck over the next few days, and keep posting.

Thanks. I'm trying to be! I don't think I will be on over the next few days, my boyfriend is taking me away for the weekend tomorrow so will hopefully keep my mind off things!

Babs x

[nsd_user663_54849]

Hi Babs

Sorry only just seen your post what a nightmare, hope you are feeling a bit better now the end of the working week is near AND you have a weekend away to look forward to.

Its crazy but one of the responses to your post said 'you will hate yourself for having a cig and it won't change anything' sounds stupid but I had never thought about it like that before, you just assume it will, but of course the situation is exactly the same afterwards DOH!!!

Just found chunky fudge kitkats!! thats my treat for later, hope you have something lined up too, maybe a glass of vino? you have a lot on your plate and you are coping with it so well, please keep going, you are my inspiration so purely selfishly i want you to succeed!!

keeping everything crossed you have a better weekend

TVH xx