Hi all,
I didn't smoke today, still as committed as ever to the quit, 38 days is too good to lose. Penthouse here we come but I'm glad today is nearly over as it's been the most challenging for a while.
Situation: I was up at 4.30 today for a three hour drive to a five hour workshop with customers. Nothing new, medium latte, final email check then crank up the laptop and off we go. Into the detail and before you know it it's lunchtime.
But then as we were wrapping up with the meeting summary and lunch the psychological triggers hit. I recognised it immediately, i haven't wanted to smoke that badly for many days now, but twice today I've really wanted to smoke. Having just written that I'm pleased that I used the word 'wanted' as opposed to 'needed'. I really don't think I need to any more, and physically I feel fine.
My learning from today - it's been tough twice but not that tough. I will continue to experience situations that I now consciously recognise as 'times to smoke'. That's perfectly ok as I really believe now that I don't NEED to any more. And they will get to be fewer and further between. I'm getting rid of the sub/unconscious need, as I said it's a psychological 'want' and not a physical or mental need now. Recognise it, and move on.
And I'm still surprised, and proud of myself for being smoke free....still. 38 days later. Tomorrow is another smoke free day and just logging back into this forum after a challenging day has helped. I know you hear me, and my reason for posting this is twofold:
Given the time of year there are many determined quitters following through on New Years resolutions that take heart from those that are with them and busting through milestones, i have an obligation in that respect and I'm not leaving the camp.
And secondly the Christmas Conquerors are a fearsome bunch! And I'm determined to embody the ethos. This is for good and a bunch of chemically enhanced, shredded tobacco leaves aren't going to get the better of a determined guy. You're a plant for heaven's sake, how dare you! Up yours smoking, sod off - why should you have any impact on my life at all. I don't need you.
Tomorrow I'll be back supporting my fellow quitters, keep it up everyone! And thanks for reading. This is just my way of looking smoke and nicotine in the eye and wishing that they had a pair of b0ll0x I could kick them in. So metaphorically will have to do....and that was it! Cheers, here's to day 39.....
H
Day two and still feeling good
