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Hi,

I wanted to start a thread (even though I didn't realise til just now), that dealt with transient, temporary feelings.

I've felt like s**t since about 4pm.

I want a fag

Soooo bad

But, I know it's a feeling that's not going to stay I will feel better in an hour, in a couple of hours, if I have a sleep (very topical 4 me), in the morning, when I'm not alone anymore!

Anyway, I thought that having a place to rant, and not feel like your whole quit was in question, was a good idea???

That's what this thread is for!! Be it one day or 19 months since you quit!

Molly x

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  • Still think of fags...............FFF£&^&)"("(*¬"%*%(¬$*%*¬£$^

    Still the odd fleeting .... I'm missing something .....FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF$(£$*¬*£$**¬£$^*¬£&$%^*(*¬£%*(^

    Fidgety.............restless legs.....................missing something?.....................

    FFF£!£$T%$( (£(%$^(!*("!("($%)(&%^($"("$%&*("$%(&"$

    Just want it finished NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!

    Thanks Mols

    Good idea.....feel better for that!

  • How we're feeling

    Quit still going OK I guess. My roller coaster journey seems to have stopped at ground level because I just have an awful feeling of emptiness, feeling lost, down, fed up, lump in my throat (sign of anxiety) tearful, sad, lazy, lethargic, not sleeping well again and just generally down but not out!!

    Hopefully, these feelings will be short lived. And yes, it's good to talk!

    Thanks for listening:)

    Fi x

  • Quit still going OK I guess. My roller coaster journey seems to have stopped at ground level because I just have an awful feeling of emptiness, feeling lost, down, fed up, lump in my throat (sign of anxiety) tearful, sad, lazy, lethargic, not sleeping well again and just generally down but not out!!

    Hopefully, these feelings will be short lived. And yes, it's good to talk!

    Thanks for listening:)

    Fi x

    Ah but you're not giving in are you Fi! It doesn't matter what rubbish your quit chucks at you, you won't cave! Now, that's what this threads all about! Who says you can't be strong and have a moan! X

    Aw Fi, me mum, that's why I put this on! You're so supportive of everyone and we'd all be flipping mental if we thought we could do this without ever wobbling!!

    Please. Fi, don't look at it as emptiness sweetheart, it's more like a "lacking",

    You are so so lovely that I certainly hope that there's nothing approaching emptiness in your life. Specially with Meggie! Mines a chocolate lab as well. Aren't they brill!

  • Aw Molly

    Thanks for that, much appreciated. I'm annoyed at feeling the way I do, cause there is absolutely nothing coming over me, especially compared to some the problems and heartache some people are facing all over the world.

    Pesky thoughts of cigs was unexpected and overwhelming. I finished work yesterday for Christmas Holidays, so maybe being out of routine has thrown me.

    And yes, Meggie always cheers me up, love, love her. She's up beside me on her blankety now, (not usually allowed on the sofa!!).

    Fi x

  • That's just the thing Fi, having "feelings" about fags doesn't and never will define us! Ever! Things like Meggie define us, never cigs the thing is, by not acknowledging it or giving it headroom or worse still, pretending we are too strong to feel things like that, now that defines us!

    I only say because I am, up until an hour ago, guilty of that!!

    Now?

    I'd rather moan and be smoke free than score points for being strong!!!

  • I'd rather moan and be smoke free than score points for being strong!!!

    Well that's well said you clever clogs. Hopefully, with a good nights sleep, our minds will get back into the positivity mode.

    Thanks again Mols x

  • Well that's well said you clever clogs. Hopefully, with a good nights sleep, our minds will get back into the positivity mode.

    Thanks again Mols x

    I am so pleased to have met you my forum ma, luv ya x Mols

  • .......Grumble.....................

  • Thats the ticket Biggrin!!!

    You grumble away petal !

    Do you have a particular grumble or is it a general feeling of grumbleness?

    Molly x

  • ........grumbling about grumbling............

  • I'm with you, my grumble though is that they seem to think I should work today!

    Don't "they" realise its Christmas!

  • My days going so badly and I was just using this thread of many names to list my woes and it disappeared. How crap is that, Im not even competent to vent. Not smoking but I wish I was, but I know it would make me feel really bad. Grrr

  • Aw Mrsm

    I'm sorry you're having a bad day, sending you hugs

    Molly x

  • My days going so badly and I was just using this thread of many names to list my woes and it disappeared. How crap is that, Im not even competent to vent. Not smoking but I wish I was, but I know it would make me feel really bad. Grrr

    Well write another post and have a good vent!

  • Well write another post and have a good vent!

    Good point, well made as ever Biggrin.

    Come on mrsm, have a good vent.

    Molly x

  • Cant remember what it was oh yes. Trying to clean up for Xmas round a bunch of lazy arsed 17-21 year olds. Threw them out eventually and that felt GOOD. 23 year old has now arrived home Yay. Next year a cottage somewhere very very remote. Oh yes and in a moment of smoking cessation madness 10 days ago I died my hair "fiery red", it is actually a ratty and uneven salmon pink, not good. Hairdresser says £65.00 and 5 hours to fix it. Grr Grr. HOW AM i GOING TO COPE WITH 8 PEOPLE, 3 DOGS AND 3 CATS FOR THE NEXT WEEK WITHOUT MY MAGIC KEEP THEM ALL AWAY FROM ME STICK?

  • Cant remember what it was oh yes. Trying to clean up for Xmas round a bunch of lazy arsed 17-21 year olds. Threw them out eventually and that felt GOOD. 23 year old has now arrived home Yay. Next year a cottage somewhere very very remote. Oh yes and in a moment of smoking cessation madness 10 days ago I died my hair "fiery red", it is actually a ratty and uneven salmon pink, not good. Hairdresser says £65.00 and 5 hours to fix it. Grr Grr. HOW AM i GOING TO COPE WITH 8 PEOPLE, 3 DOGS AND 3 CATS FOR THE NEXT WEEK WITHOUT MY MAGIC KEEP THEM ALL AWAY FROM ME STICK?

    Sounds stressful. I know the bit in capitals is venting, but seriously, do you have any strategies ready for dealing with the onslaught?

  • fed up!

    Molly and Nutmeg, I hope you girls are feeling better today!

    I am fed up myself at the moment the weight is just driving me mad. I want to buy nice clothes and they are nice... until I put them on... and then they look awful I am so fat:( That makes me think I might start again and shift this weight, but how stupid would that be?

    Sorry any newbie reading that, it is harder because I am older I suppose?

  • Molly and Nutmeg, I hope you girls are feeling better today!

    I am fed up myself at the moment the weight is just driving me mad. I want to buy nice clothes and they are nice... until I put them on... and then they look awful I am so fat:( That makes me think I might start again and shift this weight, but how stupid would that be?

    Sorry any newbie reading that, it is harder because I am older I suppose?

    Hi Hazel / Molly.

    Back to not sleeping again and it's driving me crackers as I need and love my sleep, and my bed!! (not a lazy bones tho honest!).

    Feeling so, so today. Went to Costco and did food shopping, so no more shops at least. Hate shops, hate shopping, would rather be out with Meggie in the moors in my wellies!

    However, I do like nice clothes and tend to just blitz a few of my fav shops for outfits. This isn't happening just now either cos of weight gain, 2 bloody stone!!

    So hardly anything fits and I have a tell tale rubber band red mark effect round my tummy!!!! I'm tall, and covering weight gain up not too badly, but feeling heavy.

    Haze, I've discovered really nice John Rocha Leggings in Debenhams, (£20) and bought a few pairs, teamed up with patent long boots and loose tops, and even long cardi's, they're actually OK and really quite dressy and comfy, would recommend them.

    Sorry to newbies for sounding despondent, however we all know well enough that what we're doing isn't a gentle stroll round the park!! Luckily my good days have way, way outweighed my bad ones.

    Great thread for a wee moan Molly:)

    Love

    Fi x

  • Hi Hazel / Molly.

    Back to not sleeping again and it's driving me crackers as I need and love my sleep, and my bed!! (not a lazy bones tho honest!).

    Feeling so, so today. Went to Costco and did food shopping, so no more shops at least. Hate shops, hate shopping, would rather be out with Meggie in the moors in my wellies!

    However, I do like nice clothes and tend to just blitz a few of my fav shops for outfits. This isn't happening just now either cos of weight gain, 2 bloody stone!!

    So hardly anything fits and I have a tell tale rubber band red mark effect round my tummy!!!! I'm tall, and covering weight gain up not too badly, but feeling heavy.

    Haze, I've discovered really nice John Rocha Leggings in Debenhams, (£20) and bought a few pairs, teamed up with patent long boots and loose tops, and even long cardi's, they're actually OK and really quite dressy and comfy, would recommend them.

    Sorry to newbies for sounding despondent, however we all know well enough that what we're doing isn't a gentle stroll round the park!! Luckily my good days have way, way outweighed my bad ones.

    Great thread for a wee moan Molly:)

    Love

    Fi x

    That just sounds like my styly Fi, I am attending a meeting in Airdrie in January and I want something nice for that, so will have a look. I got a lovely dress from Debenhams for my Christmas do a couple of weeks ago.

    Why are the leggings 20 pound? seems expensive compared to what you pay in M&S.

  • Hi Hazel / Fi

    Tell me about it!!! 2 stone for me too. The thing is, I knew I wanted to quit smoking this year and I'm a big girl, so I lost 1.5 stone earlier in the year, bought loads of new clothes. I thought I'd keep on the cigs for a bit longer because I started getting compliments, which was very nice I must say!

    Anyway, I got chest pains, slapped myself upside the head for being stoopid and brought my quit forward. Piled all the weight and more back on and feel so UGLY!!

    I wish we had a Debenhams Fi, the leggings sound really good, and I get the red mark round my tum too!

    Hang in there ladies, and drag me along too. Second thoughts be careful if you do that, you might put your backs out!!!! Hehehe

    Molly x

  • That just sounds like my styly Fi, I am attending a meeting in Airdrie in January and I want something nice for that, so will have a look. I got a lovely dress from Debenhams for my Christmas do a couple of weeks ago.

    Why are the leggings 20 pound? seems expensive compared to what you pay in M&S.

    Haze

    The leggings are worth it Haze, much thicker than usual, stitching down the front, and most importantly great elasticity control:). Check them out, I love mine. I also have M and S ones, thinner and great under short dresses.

    Fi x

  • Hi Hazel / Fi

    Tell me about it!!! 2 stone for me too. The thing is, I knew I wanted to quit smoking this year and I'm a big girl, so I lost 1.5 stone earlier in the year, bought loads of new clothes. I thought I'd keep on the cigs for a bit longer because I started getting compliments, which was very nice I must say!

    Anyway, I got chest pains, slapped myself upside the head for being stoopid and brought my quit forward. Piled all the weight and more back on and feel so UGLY!!

    I wish we had a Debenhams Fi, the leggings sound really good, and I get the red mark round my tum too!

    Hang in there ladies, and drag me along too. Second thoughts be careful if you do that, you might put your backs out!!!! Hehehe

    Molly x

    Aw Molly

    Fit like are ye!! 2 stone eh, it's just incredulous how easily it goes on in such a short space of time. However, we've kicked smoking into touch, so we can easily tackle the other issue after New Year, especially with Meggie and Molly always eager for a walk.

    And Molly, you are beautiful inside and out!!:)

    Fi x

  • Ah, exercise bike, long walks, sit ups, and kettle bells!!!!!!

    I just cannot wait, I really can't, there's nothing like inflicting pain on myself!!!!

    Ah well it's got to be done, I want to see how big these lungs can get for the first time in 28 years!!!

    Molly x

  • I hear you girls, I've piled the weight on too and non of my clothes fit anymore but you know what I WILL shift it. After Christmas I'm joining slimming world again and signing up for a 10k again and getting back to the gym - all made easier by the fact that I no longer have a tight chest and exercise is enjoyable again.

    We can do it ladies and we will. We've given up smoking we can do ANYTHING!!

  • We can do it ladies and we will. We've given up smoking we can do ANYTHING!!

    Well said Karen. Here come the Girls........:)

  • Fi, I can hear that in my head now, awesome!

    Could we have "girls just wanna have fun"

  • I am with you all! Happy slim new year:)

  • I'm going to apologise now, I really don't mean to make anyone feel down.

    I didn't sleep a wink last night again. That makes it a month with 2 nights over 4 hours and a week with 2 nights at no sleep at all.

    I'll be perfectly honest, I can't cope.

    I don't want to smoke, I don't need to smoke, I will not smoke

    All that applies when I don't feel like I don't belong in my own body!

    Not sure how much headroom it's going to get the worse this gets, I'll keep trying though.

    I tried Greg's remedy last night, I've tried Una's app, I'll try Kalms tonight. Then it's off to doctors for me to get addicted to sleeping tablets!! Still, it sure beats nicotine addiction!

    Thanks anyone who even reads this, I can't believe how lovely everyone is xxx

  • Oh my god I dont know how you can stand that! I am one of those people who needs 8 hours a night or I just cannot function.I feel for you Molly I really do. You should see your gp that cannot be right. Have you always had sleeping problems? Is this since you quit? A lot of people cannot stay awake when they quit but I have not heard this before. I hope you get some sleep tonight you must be beyond exhausted!

  • Aw Haze, I've been struggling since I quit, thing is I've always struggled to get off". Always envied people that fall asleep straight away. It always took me an hour or so. Since I quit it's gotten worse.

    I really don't mean to moan because its nothing in comparison but I feel so tired that nothing seems real anymore, I look after a disabled father and I'm not being fair with him at he mo.

    Thanks for replying Hazel, it means a lot, it says I'm not being a silly whatsit!

    Will go to doctors just as soon as I can stop rambling!

    Ta Molly x

  • Bloody 'ell Mols! :eek:

    Did the Rescue Remedy do anything at all?

    Take more of it if need be.......it also works on horses.....we give them about 10 times what humans take and they're fine on it! :)

    Just to calm them down mind you, not to make the sleep.

    Lack of sleep is a torture in some countries so I can only imagine how hard it is for you at the moment.

    I would say straight to the docs to discuss things.....asap

    I'm not being personal but what do you do at nights before trying to sleep?

    Are you a bit hyper or over active? Maybe some relaxation techniques or light exercise before turning in?

    I really hope it gets better for you soon though.....

    I can see the "trout" looming on the horizon!! :eek:

    Take care

    Greg

    x

  • Thanks for this forum.

    Yeah I do have a grumble... Since I went off of my Champix about 40 days ago it's been REAL bad..... Total withdrawal again, and depression. And cravings so bad I just don't know how I have not smoked. Actually I have smoked. In my dreams. EVERY single night. But only in my dreams. Is that cheating? lol

    Did anybody else go through a particular rough patch just after 3 months? If so, please let me know and also how long it lasted. Also people who used Champix.....

    I am grateful for every day that passes smoke free, however. Endlessly grateful. Thanks for having this thread!

    Shanita

  • .......Grumble.....................

    :D

    Brilliant as always mucker

    Understated genius....I love it :D

    Now is that Apple Grumble or Rhubarb Grumble?

    Makes a difference you know :)

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