all this be strong support stuff has got me to day 16, which is worse than 14, which is worse than 13... Ad nauseum...
I haven't washed/worked/had sex/been kind/liked anything non nihilistic in 16 days. I have washed but not for about 3 days. This is too much for me. I quote 'I would rather bury my Dad again than go through this'
The simple fact is that I told myself years ago that when I get cancer I will top myself. Job done.
I only really care about myself and I don't care about myself!