I really can't believe that I now find myself back in this forum after 2 and a half years of being a non smoker but alas here I am. It is only this morning that I have found the courage to admit to myself that I have fallen back into the trap of nicotine.
It started back 3 months ago when I was at a wedding and was given a cigar by e father of the bride. I stupidly thought that there would be no harm in having just one cigar, I was very wrong.
A week passed and for some crazy reason I bought another and justified this as a one off. Before I new what was happening I was smoking 5 a day.
The reason I'm posting here today is simple, I'm now back at day one of being a non smoker. I was so proud of my last quit an I am totally gutted I missed the triggers and let complacency destroy all I had achieved.
This site helped me thought the last quit and I am determined to get back on the horse so to speak. So with all that now said and out in the open it's day one of the rest of my life.
This was a big step for me today admitting I failed again but I know this has to be the first step. I am going for it cold turkey this time and I am determined that this is the end for me as a smoker.
OK rant over.