boiling mad

[nsd_user663_24115]

Day 3 cold turkey has come round so quickly. cravings have been miniscule. my temper is on edge and really enjoyed exploding yesterday felt totally justified. might explode again soon my phone has disapearred. it never disapears for this long i can feel my anger rising and im loving it. i used to kill these feelings with smoking , how come anger is always seen as a bad thing. Mashx.... off to find my phone and possibly kill somebody oh dear.. went to phone box , dialled my tel number with the idea that on my return home i would hear phone bleep and locate it.... didnt need to... it was ringing in my pocket.. how did it get there... id looked there im sure... releif on finding it now i have to cross the road and i wish these people would f**k off back to bed and get out of my way.... got home safe its a good job cars dont have ears..... this anger thing... i think its called being alive rather than half dead which iswhat you are when u smoke.... i will have to reign it in alittle tho....Mashx

[nsd_user663_25698]

Day 3 cold turkey has come round so quickly. cravings have been miniscule. my temper is on edge and really enjoyed exploding yesterday felt totally justified. might explode again soon my phone has disapearred. it never disapears for this long i can feel my anger rising and im loving it. i used to kill these feelings with smoking , how come anger is always seen as a bad thing. Mashx.... off to find my phone and possibly kill somebody oh dear.. went to phone box , dialled my tel number with the idea that on my return home i would hear phone bleep and locate it.... didnt need to... it was ringing in my pocket.. how did it get there... id looked there im sure... releif on finding it now i have to cross the road and i wish these people would f**k off back to bed and get out of my way.... got home safe its a good job cars dont have ears..... this anger thing... i think its called being alive rather than half dead which iswhat you are when u smoke.... i will have to reign it in alittle tho....Mashx

I feel safe having a little giggle because you dont know where i am.

That exactly how i get. But i dont like it because i keep upsetting those closest to me.

I've learnt to feel it coming on now though, i'm getting good at it. So i can just go somewhere and breathe like i'm in child birth. a minute or two later i'm all recovered and ready for my 'Waltons' role of ma in my family again.

[nsd_user663_27261]

mash - you should keep a diary and write comedy sketches, reckon you could be the new Harry Enfield....