My resons - Tinks

Well here I am, planning my fourth quit attempt. I seem to be really positive then get to month 3 or 4 and reach this mental block where I really need 'one' and I'd do anything to get that 'one' which leads to another then another until I'm on 20+ again. Then the terrible effects of smoking start to show in both health and finances:

1. Wheezing

2. Waking up in the morning and having to clear my throat/chest

3. Cold hands and feet

4. Standing out in the cold to get that fix

5. Counting down the minutes until that next fix

6. Doing a job but rushing it so I can reward myself with that next fix

7. Going to the garage late at night just to get some more

8. Having to plan my time just so I have time to buy more on the way to work

9. Going without just to be able to buy them. When I quit I didn't think I was saving anything it's not until now I realised I was

10. Stinky car ash everywhere

11. Children in the family thinking it's acceptable - my nephew who is 5 held a pen the other day and said 'look I'm having a fag'. It was upsetting, I smoke outside and not around them but they still see it.

12. Yawning and tiredness and energy drops in between fixes

13. Feeling quite sad if that makes sense

14. Just that feeling of failure

Are there any benefits of smoking?

Simply no. Might get to have a chat with my smoker mates so feel more 'part of the group' but that's it.

I done these reasons so if I hit that block, I can read this and realise how I felt.

If I gave up on everything in life so easily I would never get anywhere! Oh and my weight gain was a massive problem for me but I've not lost loads of weight since feeding the addiction again, therefore it is no magic weight loss cure.

I bet some of you who have seen me moving up and down the boards and fed up now - on minute on day 1 next on month 3 then back to day 1 again. Well you will see me back on day 1 in the next couple of days and this time it will be the last time, it will.

Tinks xx

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  • Hi Tinks,

    welcome back, glad to see you are getting back on the wagon.

    Just think of how great you are going to feel when you have reached further in your Quit (which i KNOW you will).

    Cant wait to see you moving up the boards again.x.

  • Welcome back Tinks,

    I am sure you will be fine this time, we won't let you be naughty this time ;)

    Gaynor x

  • Hi folks - this whole weight gain thing, I know is can be pretty depressive and I would say more so for us ladies. It has contributed to ruining both of my previous quits.

    When my quits were ruined did I magically lose the weight again - answer is simply NO!

    Since my 1st 'proper' quit attempt in October 2009 I have put on over 3 stone in weight. I am nearly 3 months quit and I'm determined that I won't let the monster beat me again. I had one hell of a weekend and proabably shed a stone in tears but didn't not give into the monster, although I was very very very very close but I didn't and I'm so proud of myself for that.

    I have tried various 'fad' diets to try and lose weight quickly but to no avail, I joined slimming world but felt very greedy by eating 'free' foods and there being no portion control. Now I am at weight watchers and pretty happy with it.

    A few weeks ago, I was very down on here and close to throwing in the towel. Good friends on here helped me not to :) one post in particular made me sit up and think and that was one by Trandem - I have pasted it below:

    "Tinks. I knew a lady who was always well dressed, slim, attractive and fun to be round. She was a smoker. She started to suffer from pain in her upper left leg, which was eventually diagnosed as a massive blood clot.

    She went in for surgery, but the damage to the vessels and muscles was so bad the leg had to amputated. This was all down to smoking.

    How much more uncomfortable would you feel if this happened to you? How much more would you feel people staring and whispering about you? Weight can be lost, limbs can't be grown back.

    Lynne, the lady I'm talking about, died a few years after the amputation aged 45 as the clots had already started to move around her body, eventually reaching her brain and triggering multiple strokes.

    DO NOT LET THIS HAPPEN TO YOU!

    If you are ever feeling down about your weight while you are quitting just say to yourself: "still got all my bits, lungs are working better, heart is working better, blood working as it should, risk of anything bad happening seriously reduced, money saved, life expectancy longer and I'm no longer a slave".

    As others have said on this thread, keep up with the quit, don't give yourself another problem. It will not help you. Nicotine is NOT a miracle weight loss device".

    Whilst all the other posts helped - this post saved my quit.

    I think what I'm trying to say is whilst I know the whole weight thing is a big problem and issue for some of us. Try not to let it get you down and definitly don't let it ruin your quit. As Nikiw said on here 'fat I can fix. lung cancer I can't'

    Good luck all

    Tinks xx :)

    Thought I would post this here for you Tinkerbell as It helped me. I hope your own words can come back to help you !!

    Sian xx

  • Hi Tink

    Nice to see you back again and getting back on that Wagon. I know you can do it this time, you just gotta stay strong hunni, dont worry about the weight lets do one thing at a time. You have been an inspiration to me and to others on here and we need you back and strong.

    Im rooting for you. Good luck Hun

    LOL

  • Oh Tinks!!! :(. I didn't know you'd had a blip.

    This is the one hun. I can feel it :). Good luck. We're all rooting for you!!!

    Ed xxx

  • hi tinks, i couldn't be more pleased to see you back again :) and that is a very nice post with all the good reasons for quitting that it's all too easy to forget once you get lost in the cravings, so thanks for posting that it was a good reminder, all the best on the quit, 5mol<er

  • Wishing you all the strength and will power you need, not just to match your previous best, but to exceed beyond that ..... and keep going.

    And keep going

    and going

    and going

    and going:)

    Tink ... you have that all powerful clipboard .....do what you need with it, just get passed that annoying stage that makes you stumble time and time again. That stage is a bitch no doubt but this time, you'll conquer it !

    You CAN do it :cool:

  • Clicks for tinks

    Keep on keeping on Tinks, get some strategies in place for your challenging period.

    Do you ever want to go through this again- really???

    Don't give in.

    Willing you onwards. Get those treats ready,keep a diary and post,read read read.

    M

  • Good to see you Tinks. Positive and great you have climbed back on the wagon. Try not to let the weight gain worry you. It does sort itself out in the end. Took a couple of years for me but stick with it. xx

  • Thanks for the reponses, advice & kind comments all. Tomorrow is the D Day :) Went to the smoking nurse today, I'm going to use the patches again. They also gave me the gun and inhalator. They checked my carbon monoxide and it was 31 :o apparantly the nurse said in a heavy smoker the reading is usually 26 - 30. I wouldn't of thought that a month of smoking (as it was a month ago that I lost the quit) would result in such a reading. The nurse did say though that the carbon monoxide would be out of the system within 24hours of quitting.

    I know there are folks on here who don't 'believe' in the whole NHS stop smoking service and NRT and I understand why but I don't feel confident to do the whole CT thing so chose this way and different things work for different people. I think the only common thing in peoples quits is the education about smoking and quitting.

    I'll say hello tomorrow in day 1

    xx

  • Always looking out for you Tinks.

    Jackie x

  • All the best with this one Tinks :)

    Use whatever gets you through it. Patches helped me initially as did reading links and posts from those ahead.

    Pol x

  • Hiya Tinks. Sorry I'm late, only just seen this thread. Glad you're giving it another go. Far from being fed up of seeing you come and go, it's always nice to see old friends again, better though for you to stay. Don't sit on the wagon come and get in it among your mates, less chance of falling off. xxx David.

  • Hi Tinks

    Im glad that your starting your new quit again. You do what ever it takes to stay off those nasty things and where possible try and work out what tempted you back this time, hopefully this time it will be for ever but as you know take it minute by minute.

    All the best hun x

  • Thanks for the reponses, advice & kind comments all. Tomorrow is the D Day :) Went to the smoking nurse today, I'm going to use the patches again. They also gave me the gun and inhalator. They checked my carbon monoxide and it was 31 :o apparantly the nurse said in a heavy smoker the reading is usually 26 - 30. I wouldn't of thought that a month of smoking (as it was a month ago that I lost the quit) would result in such a reading. The nurse did say though that the carbon monoxide would be out of the system within 24hours of quitting.

    I know there are folks on here who don't 'believe' in the whole NHS stop smoking service and NRT and I understand why but I don't feel confident to do the whole CT thing so chose this way and different things work for different people. I think the only common thing in peoples quits is the education about smoking and quitting.

    I'll say hello tomorrow in day 1

    xx

    Hey Tinks,

    it doesnt matter what form of help you get, whether its NRT or anything else, what matters is the fact that you are quitting. Its a hugely positive thing to do and who cares how you do it!

    Take care!

  • . Don't sit on the wagon come and get in it among your mates, less chance of falling off. xxx David.

    I got in the wagon today Dave, I don't know who is driving this thing but they need to watch out for them pot holes :)

    Thank you all for your kind words of support, advice and encouragment. Never in my life have I met a group of people like you guys, no matter what you don't judge and it's so refreshing and reasurring. (well I know I haven't met you but you know what I mean).

    Thanks again all

    xx

  • I got in the wagon today Dave, I don't know who is driving this thing but they need to watch out for them pot holes :)

    Thank you all for your kind words of support, advice and encouragment. Never in my life have I met a group of people like you guys, no matter what you don't judge and it's so refreshing and reasurring. (well I know I haven't met you but you know what I mean).

    Thanks again all

    xx

    Tinks, you *will* get there hun :).

    Ed xx

  • They also gave me the gun and inhalator.

    I hope they didn't give you any bullets with the gun (although I think Christine still has a bullet.....) :p

    Great to see you're not giving up giving up - we're all rooting for you. Patches and inhalators are the best way, but then I'm biased - you CAN do it!

    Xxx

  • I hope they didn't give you any bullets with the gun (although I think Christine still has a bullet.....) :p Xxx

    Whoops I meant gum :D that'll teach me. Pol & Lorna will be giving me a slap for not proof reading before sending.

    Thank MCW, thanks a lot for your support and encouragement :)

    xx

  • *grabs clipboard from Tinks and gives a short smart clip around right ear*

    I saw that last night and grinned. Stick with the gum Tinks, quitting really ain't that bad ;)

    Lorna has the gun and MCW is correct, Christine has the bullet.

    Be happy and enjoy your quit. Your in control :cool:

    Pol xx

  • I'm bumping my reasons as I've been struggling a bit these last few days so need to reinforce my quit. I hope this will help others too :)

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