OK, I'm a bit miffed............
Decided to spend some of the $$'s Ive saved not smoking and booked in with my beautician for some waxing (PS more painful as a non smoker, must be the nerve endings) he he. Anyway I dont see her much but when I do its chat chat chat, Ive always been paranoid in the past about her smelling smoke on me and have sucked mints, sprayed perfume etc, because I was certain she couldnt be a smoker, shes 40, attractive with amazing skin, curvy, professional husband, 2 kids and one has asthma, very clean living, I know you should never make assumptions, but you just do.
Well she was chatting about wanting to cut down on alcohol and she was on a diet, I then told her I was able to afford this treat as I'd quit smoking, she seemed a bit coy and I said 'I suppose you've never smoked?', OOOh yes she said, smoked for many years......even in early pregnancy, then managed to quit 8 years ago as she felt too bad about it and her hubby was anti smoking. Well I thought I'd found an ally, I opened up about it all, how hard it was but rewarding etc, she agreed, then dropped the bombshell............But when I meet up with certain friends I'll just chainsmoke all night and it doesnt affect me!!!!!.........I'd heard enough at this point but then she elaborated......I just loved smoking, I miss it, it was so great when I smoked! I could have flaming cried, I politely told her she shouldn't do it as it's just plain daft, then left feeling deflated!!
Seems social smoking is sooooo in fashion, my neighbour does it, she's been quit 6 years but still sparks up when she's blind drunk, she once asked me for one (when I smoked) and I wondered was there any point quitting just to be reduced to this even after 6 years?
How can I avoid these potential pitfalls? I want to be a strong ex-smoker, smoking socially or when drunk to me is weakness surely?
One of my goals is to amend my life insurance which costs us £70 a month as smokers, this will go down to £24 after 12 months of no tobacco use. But surely if these occasional smokers were to die and they had non-smoking life insurance, would they be covered? I'm really interested in that question as I am 'clean' and they are not!!
Hey social smokers, either quit or dont, just stop screwing with my head ha ha ha !!
Rant over, my quit is going lovely, thanks for allowing me to let off steam no smoking day xx