Been out tonight with my smoking buddy!
We went to watch a few bands, some good some bad! During one particularly dreadful act...I made the suggestion of going for a cigarette! To ease the pain on my ears! Don't worry I had no intention of smoking...I just had to get away from the noise and knew my smoking buddy could not say no to a smoke after a couple of beers!
So we went and stood in the doorway like a couple of second class citizens! A small doorway at that. There was only us there...the doorman...and a couple of young girls. It was literally lashing down with rain/sleet/snow outside!!!
I didn't mind keeping my friend company, yes I was cold, yes I didn't need to be there...but after a couple of minutes another 10 people all came out...then the little doorway got really cramped and I was surrounded by a dozen smokers! Lets not forget im only into day 25 of my quit here!
But, did I flinch? Did I crave? No....I wanted to get away from there ASAP as it was truly horrible! I was somewhere I really didn't want to be, somewhere I didn't feel part of and somewhere I couldn't associate with...even though just a few weeks ago...that would have been me stood in the little doorway smoking!
food for thought. especially for all those who question ( including myself at one time) if I would ever not want a cigarette!?!