Day 25 and all is well.

[nsd_user663_7984]

I am on day 25 and have managed to get really pished twice over the past 7 days and have not had a cigarette. If I can do that then I can do something as crazy sounding as never smoking again.

Hope everyone is doing ok?

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[nsd_user663_5028]

I am on day 25 and have managed to get really pished twice over the past 7 days and have not had a cigarette. If I can do that then I can do something as crazy sounding as never smoking again.

Hope everyone is doing ok?

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Hi clare

nice to see you still around kicking old Nico's ass and doing whilst you are pished that takes some doing and you should be really proud of yourself like you say if you can do that drunk you can do it sober ..... kepp on fighting Clare

[nsd_user663_7674]

Hello Clarebear. Hello Bradders.

Clarebear - Great news you're still on the wagon. I never doubted that wouldn't be the case

Progress report at this end - well... I started to act like a normal person around Day 21. I stopped figetting, fiddling with my hair, staring into space, exploding with unbridled anger, giving car drivers abuse and finger signals, talking unjoined up rubbish and finally started to feel connected to reality. In short I stopped being a total mess.

During the "30's" things got easier. I stopped eating so much and started working out more.

This weekend (Days 42/43) I spent with my boyfriend who smokes. I knew he was smoking and I knew I could have one (it's all about choice after all) but smoking one wasn't an option unless I wanted to be a smoker for the rest of my life - so I just subconsciously didn't think about smoking. I even went to the pub and stood outside with the smokers and wasn't *that* bothered. By *that* bothered I mean I wasn't plotting a way to kill someone to get hold of their cigarettes because I had none of my own. The main downside at the mo is that I am feeling "lost" and can't see the "point" of social events when I can't smoke. I know this will pass even though it feels like it won't right now, in the same way not smoking for 44 days, seemed impossible 44 days ago.

Well done Clarebear for not smoking when you were spangled. Imagine how p*ssed off you'd be if you had. All for one stupid puff

On with the crusade!