Had a bad day yesterday and today seems even worse.
Nobody could do anything right yesterday. I was a b**ch. Can't say I was really craving a smoke, just I bit everyone's head off. OH went out for a few hours out of the way and then I started on him when he came back for being out so long. Had a two hour battle with son all over a spider. He wanted to catch it and put it outside and I wanted him to leave it. Stupid I know. He then went to a friends and has gone camping for a few days with them.
This morning got up, and all I want to do is cry. Feel like today is going to be worse than yesterday. I was up at 8, OH and daughter stayed in bed until dinner time so I spent the first 4 hours of my birthday on my own, opening my cards all by myself. To make it worse, OH didn't buy me a pressie as he said he did not know what to get me, so he got me NOTHING!!!! So we not speaking and he has just gone off to his Mum's for dinner, again to get out of the way I think. He didn't even say sorry (but to be honest if he did, I would have said sorry wasn't good enough).
Kids got me a pressie, but not what I wanted. I know this may sound selfish but they asked me weeks ago what I would like and I told them, only to not get what I really wanted.
We are supposed to be going to the pub for drinks this afternoon and I just want to sit here, cry and feel sorry for myself, cos nobody loves me.
I know I'm being a cow but just feel so down. Not going to reach for a cigarette though as I know it won't help, I just needed to put the way I'm feeling down somewhere.
Not sure if its quitting effects or just me. Anybody know how I can cheer myself up in the next hour?