:(So i am on day 15, and i feel really low, i am snapping at kids and OH, i want to cry all the time and or smash something. i just don't feel like me. i have cancelled friends comin tonight, just because i want everybody to be as miserable as i am:mad:
going on holiday on wed and really don't want to go, i am worried about everything, what will i forget to pack, will we miss the flight, will the hotel be rubbish, will we all have a crap time.
i am driving kids and OH round bend, OH is now in a foul mood because everytime he tries to talk to me i just shout at him for no good reason.
i so far haven't felt any better for not smoking, i don't feel brighter, cleaner or healthier, just feel really sad, i can get through the day by just chosing not to smoke for the next 5 mins, but i don't know how much longer i can choose not to smoke when i feel so much worse now than i did 16 days ago when i was a smoker.
My OH has suggested buying some kind of nicotine replacement, he says this is better than buying fags, and i completly understand this but in my head if i am going to fail at this by taking nicotine into my body i might as well buy 20 B&H.
i really don't know how much longer i can fight this, i am really down of every single day having to fight to not do something and not feeling any better.