Well..... up and into month 3 and feeling good
And yes..... I was one of those committed smokers who was terrified of quitting.... one of those who NEVER thought she would get this far. I spent $500 once to go see a hypnotherapist unlimited times (guarantee to quit thing)..... man, that guy hated me after like a million sessions Don't know why I bothered.... I went there with my smokes KNOWING I would smoke them after.....
I knew you had to 'WANT TO STOP" and I just didn't know what that looked like..... how could you learn to not want to???? I wanted to smoke but I also wanted to quit..... fear is of course what kept me smoking. Then after many tries I just got pissed..... I was still scared but too mad something like this had a hold of me. After a week or so into the quit I realized I could NEVER do this again...... so it was either being a smoker until I die or continue on with this quit...... so again fear played into it but at least this time fear was going to steer me the right direction I went day by day and being on here has really enlightened me. Many, many good posters...... and finally a couple of months in I learned to WANT TO STOP..... it just became obvious. I think it would have been an easier quit if I had known more before
Everyone on here has motivated me...... I have spent hours and hours on here and it has been a journey...... a journey I felt I was not on alone. Thank you everyone!!!