I somehow get that deja vu feeling, as if I've posted this already but can't find it any more.
I'm a late starter, was about 24 (Kung Fu until then and the teacher would have literally thrown me out the door) when I started smoking. Since then have quit one time for about a year and could feel the surge in energy I got. That's my main reason.
Apparently, the last time I quit for the wrong reasons coz I always had a craving for fags and started on purpose again when the company sent me on an assignment to Russia, the job was done in 6 month but the smoking stayed.
I've long lived under the illusion that if I'd be living at home where fags are real money it would be easier to quit. Nonsense! Went home in 2001, stayed for a month and didn't even think of quitting.
So here it goes once more just for me:
2. Wastes my time
3. Most likely does some damage to my health
4. Have to sneak out during meetings, which doesn't look good for the position i'm in and consequently for my future (actually a good reason, i love my job, shouldn't be on 4.)
5. Still looking for a girlfriend/wife
I don't really expect anyone to read this, I must admit I do this for myself. Roughly 36 hours to go until my first attempt with the help of this forum. I'm afraid, very afraid of failing again.
So here I am, out in the open, somebody who usually keeps to himself, never goes out, pushes the expression 'computer geek' to the extreme, typing this and crying coz I'm scared s******s now already.
Mods, if you find that i've posted this elsewhere already then please delete it. I did a few searches but couldn't find it. Thanks