Upwards quite literally - nearly. I went to my first horse show of the year yesterday. This was the one situation that I was dreading being a non-smoker as I have ALWAYS smoked when at a show! I get quite nervous and stressed so I have always relied on a few ciggies to get me through.
Anyway having had 3 months of smoke free, I wasn't as worried. Then, when we went to compete, my naughty horse mistook the dressage arena for a rodeo ring and put on quite performance!
When we came out the ring I got off him and I could have cried. I said to my husband 'OMG - I wish I smoked!' hoping that he would offer me one of his. Luckily he didn't!
Anyway - he went to get me a cup of tea, I calmed down then entered my next class and came a credible 5th!
That's another - and the biggest - hurdle over as far as facing situations without the need for a ciggie!
Apart from that moment - I don't think about smoking any more, even when hubby is smoking and we are sitting outside with a bottle of wine.
It is such a FAB feeling being free!!!