my first day here. today at 12.30pm i am going to give up smoking. i smoke an average of twenty a day, a little less these last couple of days as i have the flu and a chest infection-am hating every cigarette at the moment but it still hasn't stopped me from smoking even to give my lungs a rest while i'm sick.
So...i decided to stop. Well i decide to stop every day, and do for a few hrs, and then panic and have to buy some. can't even count the amount of times i've run water over them, gone a few hours, then anxiety sets in and i rush to the shop. i have had about 6 serious attempts over ten yrs. the most i've ever gone is one day short of 3 weeks.
this probably sounds garbled but i'm finding it hard to concentrate because the fear is creeping in already. i'm gonna go now and try and mentally prepare myself, only have under an hour and a half left of smoking. i hate them when i smoke, but when i don't....well i guess every smoker and ex smoker knows the rest of that sentence!
Would really appreciate any advice on how to overcome fear, of failing or succeeding, i'm not sure which. maybe both. Crazy mind, a smokers!
Ok, well, talk later!