I've stopped for 3 weeks now
I've enjoyed it, I feel great and I've had a mostly easy first few weeks.
However tonight I've had a particularly awful time, I've had a few drinks (despite the fact that I've actually drunk throughout my stop period before this) and I've been having constant cravings throughout the night - I've cried in front of my boyfriend and all my friends and his, and I feel totally embarassed.
I keep trying to rationalise everything but nothing seems to be working, and it perplexes me how this has not happened really throughout the whole three weeks previous that I have stopped.
Whether it's the alcohol or not, I think the idea that I can never smoke again is making me feel depressed and I'm concerned.
I have another NHS meeting tomorrow, but I don't think they are much help.
And also my boyfriend who has never smoked has tried to give me support, but part of me is thinking that he does not understand as he has never smoked.
I hope this gets better!