very bad weekend :(

went out friday afternoon for a drink or 5 with a few people from work...ended up getting quite drunk!

had a really bad time of the quit though which shocked me being that i have already done a drunken night and i was fine.

kept thinking why am i depriving myself of something i enjoy, then was thinking but you dont enjoy it, yes i did, no i didnt etc etc..

then was thinking oh maybe just a few will be ok whilst im having a drink, and i was sat there jealously watching one of the others go out having them all night....

i am pleased to say that despite all of the above i did not smoke but mainly due to my hubby picking me up and me leaving by 8pm. i dread to think what may have been if id got more drunk and stayed out late :(

im really disappointed in myself and a bit gutted that this happened as i thought i had my head sorted - obviously not

weird thing was i went out saturday night with some friends and got even more drunk AND spent half the night outside with them whilst they were smoking and i was totally fine. did get some cravings but was not anywhere near giving in and having one like i was friday night

so weekend was a bit crap on the smoking front. hope everyone else was better x

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  • Dont feel bad Babe you never smoked thats the main thing. we are going to have times like this or this quitting would be a walk in the park. Witch its not for most of us. be proud of yourself you won not nic. xxxxx

  • The fact you were strong and didn't smoke despite how bad it was is awesome...

    I hope today is better for you, every problem overcome means that problem is beaten! Well done :D

  • i realise that it is good that i didnt cave in and have one but its just convinced me that im always gonna end up feeling this way and it worries me that i might let my guard down in years to come when iv been stopped for years and lost the momentum of "giving up" - iv head so many stories of ppl who stopped for years then go back :(

    i guess its just hit me what an addiction really means...its something that will never go and il always have to be aware of

    sorry about the negative thoughts today.

  • You did not smoke,You did great but yes you have to keep your guard up always,drinking especially...........anyway it gets easier and your doing great...:D

  • the maine thing was you were strong,you done good,,remember its up to you weather you smoke or not.repeat this when you feel a crave coming on.i dont need a fag..i dont want a fag..also take very.very.deep breaths..and most of all keep the faith tony

  • the maine thing was you were strong,you done good,,remember its up to you weather you smoke or not.repeat this when you feel a crave coming on.i dont need a fag..i dont want a fag..also take very.very.deep breaths..and most of all keep the faith tony

    your posts always bring a smile to my face tony :)

  • wheres the fun !!!!!

    well thats what i keep telling myself each time i want a ciggie.

    everything is soooooooooooo much better with a ciggie ... at least thats what this nico drug thinggggiiieeee tries to tell me.

    in truth i think all ex-smokers have from time to time the wish to smoke and some days it is very overpowering but.....

    try to remember the good moments when you are doing something that you enjoy and you realize that you did not need a ciggie to make it feel better.

    been 5 weeks without a ciggie and i can pick up a ciggie at anytime and start smoking again but i choose not to.

    even after 5 weeks and my last quit time was 107 i still wanted a ciggie but at least it stopped being so overwhelming that i caved in.

    i took 1 puff of a ciggie and bang back to smoking all over again so 107 days out of the window but this time for me its different because i can have a ciggie anytime i want but i choose not to.

    helps me get through it.

    hope this helps.

    well that and tranquilizers x:cool:

  • Well you stayed off the smokes and that's what counts!!

    There are going to be tricky bits that you have to deal with, the fact they crop up doesn't matter. What does is that you do deal with them.

    I've just come back from a weekend away and I felt like I was missing a smoke through a lot of thee weekend. The truth is that its the 1st weekend away since I quit and I'm used to smoking myself stupid when I'm away, its not that I actually enjoyed it its just that's how I used to be. It just goes to show that I'm still getting used to the new improved me :)

    Cheers

    Nic

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