I have the last few days started to feel like i am missing out on something. Like walking down the street near where i work and seeing people sat in outdoor cafes having a coffee and a fag or a fag between courses at restaurants. (outdoor heaters are common here). I played football last night and a few of the guys sparked up after the game - my lungs were like hmmmm that looks nice. Drinking - whenever i have got drunk i have really wanted to smoke. Just for the taste and the feeling not because of any addiction - thats all gone hasnt it?
So whats this all about - the feeling that i am missing out on some aspect of life that i used to enjoy. I dont like it and worry this is what caused me to fail in the past? Any advice greatly appreciated.