Hi all this is my first post im just at the start of week 7 and i think my story might be a little different to some.
I started of with the Nicotene patch which seemed to give me a panic attack, well a really big nicotene intake lets put it that way. I gave up on that after 1 day they were the 21mg and i only smoked 10 a day on average stupid nurse but nevermind. Every ciggie i had after that made my head spin for about an hour then feel fine for an hour and then crave a ciggie so after a week i thought i might as well quit as its doing me no good still smoking.
After the first 3 days of hell it then seemed a bit better but then went into a second type stage which was more Anxiety and Depprestion it was as if there was nothing in my life i feared going out even going to work i used to enjoy my job but even now on week 7 it seems to be hard work leaving the house and going out to the shops, work or anything away from home. standing in line at checkouts and in crowded places are the worse or say waiting for a meal in a bar (which i have only done once) makes me full of fear and can not wait to get out of there. I am of course still going to work because i don`t want to give in but it seems to be getting harder im not sure.
It is very strange because i have traveled all accross the world only last year and was planning to do the same next year it was my dreams but now seems to be shattered and nothing to look foward to.
Sorry to be misrable just had to get it out as for craving a ciggie i do occasionaly but not really a physhical crave more "will smoking make me better" thought. Of course it won`t but i just want to get out of this rut.
Anyone else had similar problems?
Wish i knew how long they would last im sure all docs will say is its your unconsious mind, but what put them thoughts there???
Well going insaine lol. Talking seems to make it better, getting it of my chest i guess need to change my way of thinking which is hard for me because i never stop thinking!!!
Well what you guys think? Am i a mad man?