The Queen Who?

[HipHopQueen]

Tonight I'm tired and avoiding homework by typing this note, so I am the Queen who avoided homework for an entire night. Going to school and work is draining. Some days I wonder why I"m doing it. But I have many reasons: I want to be a role model for other Black women. I want to help make change that is purposeful and long lasting. I want to publish something that makes people think and grapple with issues. and lastly I want to be counted. That means that where I am there are so few Blacks in higher education. I want to be among them to make a difference in our numbers. That's my higher ed and why me spiel for the night. I'm trying not to worry too much about what dialysis will be like and how life will change . This adds another layer to it living with a spinal cord injury, going to school, working and needing a kidney. I know I'll be okay and life will change, but honestly life never stays the same anyway. We're all given something that we each think is so huge and some times it is. We just have to find a way to look on the brighter side. Whether is is as small as seeing the perfect leaf on the ground, bright and dazzling with colors of red and yellow. When I saw it my heart smiled. I thought about picking it up and capturing its brilliance, but I just enjoyed it where it was. I think in part because I knew the moment I brought it inside and tried to save its color the color would fade. I don't fully understand why I'm going through this all. I was talking to a friend who knew me before my spinal cord injury and I said who would have thought I would be a wheelchair user and be in need of a kidney and have a mental illness. Forget the billion dollar lottery, I hit all of this. lol. I would have NEVER thought this, but who knows I could be an award winning author next you never know. For now I'll be the Queen who gets back to her homework. 😁❤️

[Bassetmommer]

Your Majesty, I remember the burn out at the end of a semester. I remember the why am I doing this. You are correct, you are a role model. You have so much to give and are so brilliant, that you must shine your light.

I started my educational path when I was 18 in a community college. Went back and finished two Associate degrees when I was 35. Then in my late 40's, finished my Bachelors and I was 52 when I finished my Masters. I never stopped learning and actually have post graduate certifications as well. I tell you this because it took me years to get where I wanted to be. But the journey was well worth it.

Hang in there and know that you are worth it. You will change people's lives for the better and in return, your life will be the best.

Hugs,

Bassetmommer

[HipHopQueen in reply to Bassetmommer]

Awe thanks. I will certainly hang in there.

[Blackmidnight]

Glad you are taking care of yourself. I feel the same way at times. When my husband proposed in 2006 he told me life would not be boring. We joke that this is true. Each day there seems to be something going on, small and simple or complex. It changes and may last for a short time or like now going through dialysis waiting on a kidney. We enjoy the simple things life has to offer more than before.

[Oceanviewed]

Just dont give up. I got my masters Degree in my 50s which still amazes me. Then I started a whole new career which lasted until I was 70. So the journey is well worth it even tho the anxiety and stress are enormous. Keep going. You will fulfill your dreams.

[HipHopQueen in reply to Oceanviewed]

Thank you for the encouragement. ❤️