Really Nervous

[Quita55]

I've been feeling numb for weeks, but now I'm getting ready nervous is this normal? As I get closer to the surgery to get me ready for dialysis I have butterflies in my stomach. Has any experience with being nervous? What did you do? I am open for ideas and advice.

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It’s normal to be nervous after an operation, as I’m writing this I am in a lot of pain as I just came home from the hospital to have my PD catheter removed. Be positive, be strong and go into that operating theatre with lots of courage all will be well, I was a little nervous when I had my surgery, a month ago I was having kidney transplant surgery which took 5-6 hours but I went into that operating theatre with lots of willpower it’s normal to be nervous but once you get your op done you will need time to heal then start hemo.

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I meant to say it’s normal to be nervous before an operation, sorry just in a lot of pain and recovering.

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It is a HUGE change, the surgery will be fine, on that you can depend....it’s the whole idea that your life is about to change BIG TIME.... and that’s not to be taken lightly.

I just started in center hemodialysis last week and I’m still grappling with the emotional stress of that change in my life. There is an 8 year old little girl inside me saying “No! No! You can’t make me!! I don’t want to!! But I keep telling her everything’s going to be ok. Yep, it’s a HUGE change and you have every right to feel what you’re feeling! I allow myself to feel it, and then I pull up my big girl panties and do what I have to do with a positive attitude towards all of it!!

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I would like to say thank you to all of you who responded to my post. I know it will be life changing big time, I'm getting through all of this with God's help, and all of you who have given me advice and supporting me,and not sugar coating the truth.

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I didn’t know if it was ok to talk about faith. Now I can see you are a person of faith! I have 2 phrases I say to myself when I’m going through tough things. The first is just simply, “ With God I can” the other phrase is “God is at the center of this activity” . P. S. If you look at my screen name you’ll see it is made up of the first letter of each word in that phrase. It has been an awesome reminder that I go through everything with God as my guide. Have a Blessed Friday!

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Howdy...

What type of dialysis access? I was on only on PD for 5 week before I had a transplant. Nonetheless, the PD catheter placement wasn't that bad, at least for me. Seriously, my wife and I order my favorite Mexican just hours afterwords. For me, it was a relief to have it over and done with (e.g. PD catheter placement). You might think of it as "dialysis is a life saving technology and will make you feel better." That's how my wife told me to think about it. It worked Plus, after just two weeks of PD, my BUN dropped from a high 98 to about, I think, 50-60.

Also, I never felt entitled to a new kidney. Though, God blessed me with two great people who swapped kidneys for me. I just asked God to help me through whatever path — dialysis, transplant or both — was ahead of me. I knew it would not be an easy road and I needed His help. Cool! I will send good thoughts your way