First of all I would like to say a massive thank you to everyone who helped me out on here 2 weeks ago when I posted about how down I was with everything. Your messages really helped me.
I went to visit my GP for a chat about my weight and lack of weight loss as well as a general health check up for weight related conditions. She has referred me to a community weight loss team whom I am going to attend weekly sessions with for 3 months, starting this week. My first day is Wednesday so a bit nervous/excited!
I've made myself an ultimatum. I've been going on half heartedly with weight loss for far too long (approx 10 years) without success and enough is enough. I am putting everything I've got into the next three months and treating this as my last chance to try and do it by myself. If I do manage to lose weight then great, and I will carry on. If it doesn't work then I have two options. Either I accept I'm not going to lose weight and focus on maintenance / general health or I give in and accept my endocrinologists suggestion of a gastric band surgery. I can't keep going round in circles like I have been because it's bad for my mental state.
Thank you for all of your support. I'm probably going to avoid the challenges and Monday weigh ins on here for a while as I just find them stressful to keep up with and then end up stress eating (the irony).