I thoroughly accept that I needed to lose weight, and still need to lose more, but i have definitely been in denial about how much.
At my heaviest I was 100.5kg (even the fact that I weigh myself in kgs is part of the denial as it doesn't sound as real as stones) and have lost bits here and there. I was chubby, but always thought of myself as curvaceous and slightly overweight, not fat and obese. In September last year I weighted 99.1kg. That was when my doctor had to change my contraceptive pill as I was too overweight for the other. That was a real wake up call! I WAS fat and i asked my doctor for help.
One of the things she suggested was an NHS 12 week weight loss programme, which I've signed up for and start soon. Quite big headed of me, but I was thinking how much slimmer than I will be compared to most of the other attendees. I may be be obese but I genuinely don't look as heavy as I am.
I have been doing well, I have lost almost 7kg since Septemer, and actually managed to lose weight over new year rather than gain it. This puts me just 2lb away from being out of the obese category for my height.
I decided to join this group last night as a bit of support and motivation to continue. I have to admit, it gave me a bit of a kick up the backside with regards to my denial again. I thought if I lost 4 more lbs I'd be laughing. But I've come on and seen that some peoples starting weight is around 13 stone. I'm still about 14 and a half after already losing over a stone!
I know everyone's weight loss journey is different, but it's given me (a probably much needed) reminder that I shouldn't be satisfied by just being 1 or 2lbs outside of the obese weight range.