Hello everyone, first time poster here
I'm pretty much a professional dieter by now - and have had a lot of experience with Weight Watchers and Slimming World. Once I lost 4.5 stone with WW and almost reached goal - but in classic yo-yo fashion, put all the weight back on and more. That's why I decided to try something a little more sustainable, sensible and frankly, cheaper!
The problem is (and has always been), that I suffer from uncontrollable urges to eat takeaway. I work in London (live in Kent) and get home from work around 7pm most nights. As you can imagine, cooking up a healthy meal is often the last thing I feel like doing, and over the past 2 years, have gotten used to grabbing up to 3 takeaways on a bad week (KFC, chinese, thai, chicken kebabs being my favourites). On other days, I would cook up something fast but not healthy (fajitas with lots of cheese, for example!)
I found every excuse to get takeaway. I had a good day at work, I had a bad day at work, I had a boring day at work. Celebrating any possible occasion, or if nothing to celebrate, then commiserating. Takeaway was 100% my reward system.
And now that I can't have it, I feel like the cravings and the wrestling with myself is taking over. Last night for example, I finished work late and wouldn't be due home till 8pm. I was overwhelmed with cravings for KFC - how quick it would be to pick up, how delicious it would taste, no washing up, and it's not even that expensive. I spent the entire time fighting myself in my brain not to do it.
I remind myself that I will feel sick afterwards (I always over-indulge), that I will probably have a bad tummy, that it's expensive compared to home cooked, and how disappointed I'll feel when I weigh in, how my chest will burn with acid indigestion and wake me up halfway through the night. But it's still so hard - I started to wonder if I'm fully addicted.
Others suggest different reward systems - hot bubble baths, getting a manicure (expensive!) and so on - but none of them are as quick, easy and reliable as food. I'm looking for help from a therapist at the moment because I live in perpetual argument with myself - talking myself down from a takeaway. Last week I did have a chicken shish kebab... but with salad and no sauce (low fat mayo from home), which helped a bit with the cravings.
Sorry for the MEGA post but really needed to get that off my chest! Do any of you suffer from similar feelings of addiction/cravings to bad food?