Depression

[LuMed79]

Feeling soooooooo depressed today and I don’t know why! Everything has been going well. I have reasons to be thankful not to be having a pity party. I struggle with these ups and downs all the time and I hate it. I have no idea how to talk to people about this and really touch on the depth of my sadness. Not my husband, friends or a therapist. It’s almost like something I’m ashamed of or embarrassed about. I’m on cymbalta and trazodone and they help but just not enough but I worry if I take anything else or higher dosages I’ll just be numb which is just as bad. 😥

[anaishunter]

LuMed79 - the lows are hard. It's easy to think you'll never get out of the hole. Take a deep breath first. Maybe it's time to talk to your doctor about a different medication for depression?

Sending you a big hug.

[RoseySawyer]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I would definitely get the Doctor to check to see if you need different meds instead of the ones your on. ❤🌷

[SueAB]

Hey, kiddo! We MSers need all the help we can get! If I were you I would talk with the Doctor who prescribed your meds and tell them exactly what you just shared here.

[TracyBelle]

I am sobbing uncontrollably as I type this. I have no income and my husband just started at a new real estate company. Even though he has had a lot of new clients right off, getting paid for a closing will take time. I busted my ass to pass the bar exam and lost my vision 12 days after I was sworn in and received my license. I have never made a penny. How are we going to pay the bills?

My mom is in a Medicaid hellhole nursing home. I have to FORCE myself to go there because it is so horrible. The only time I leave my house is to go visit her, and I cry all the way home. I know plenty of people have it worse but that doesn’t ease my pain.

I am sorry, I know people get tired of my constant negativity.

[LuMed79 in reply to TracyBelle]

I’m so sorry about all of your struggles. This disease seems to take the best from us.

[Royjr in reply to TracyBelle]

No😀I don’t think we ever get tired of people venting about their situation. I really don’t know what to say but to tell you to keep the faith. Don’t give in and it’ll be ok. I’m sure of this. I know it’s easier said than done and you probably get this often, but I truly believe this. I’m praying for you and your family🙏🏽

[jimeka in reply to TracyBelle]

Tracy it’s always good to hear from you, and non of us get tired of your negativity. Ms is hard enough to handle without having outside troubles as well. Is your mum aware that she is in that home? I will be praying that you get a break, and that your husbands job is successful and for your mums situation. Take care Tracy, we all care, big hug 🤗 💐 Blessings Jimeka 🦋

[RoyceNewton]

Not what YOU want to hear dear but I am going to say it anyway. My dear this is normal, this is life with ms. These moments will never go away and there are no drugs that YOU can take that will reliably and consistently take care of them. This is ou life with ms.

YOU did the right thing by recognizing it and talking about it. Holding it in really only makes it worse. Recognize it, study it and work out if there are any triggers that brought it about. If YOU find some, then change them so they do not happen again. Of course, YOU can always just vent here and wallow in your misery for a day or five. This is not a bad thing either Warn those around YOU what is happening and ask them not to try to solve it, just keep the cups of tea coming.

This is not a bad thing, it is just a thing, not that big a thing either it just happens. No rhyme or reason, it is just ms.

Royce

[Guava69]

Ahh LuMed I'm probably one of the last one to be responding to you because this is how my day started. I get into these modes when I'm so down and I get even more irritated with myself because there are so many good things around me. And I just want to cry and be by myself. I know MS is the primary reason but blaming it doesn't make me feel any better. Then later in the day after doing my exercises and resting I decided to call my dear Aunt who is in her eighties and is still fully engaged in life. We had a short sweet and spicy conversation. Then the tide started to turn a bit. I then came back to this site seeking more relief and now I'm speaking to you. I used to take Wellbutrin and developed a wonderful relationship with my therapist. It took years for me to realize the drug alone wasn't going to do all the work I had to show up too. I've since created my own personal tool box of coping strategies. Calling my dear Aunt is one of them. She's very positive and I always enjoy speaking to her. A new tool in my box is this forum that I recently found. We both share this forum. I have a lot of other goodies in my toolbox what about you?? You've been here in this place before and came through. You will again. Peace and blessings ☺️🙏☺️

[anaishunter in reply to Guava69]

Amen to the toolbox.

[LuMed79 in reply to Guava69]

I need better tools. Now I pretty much just cry and complain 😩 I try to stay busy doing something to keep me out of my head.

[jimeka in reply to LuMed79]

I have suggested this to someone before so if you have already read it, I apologise. Everyday find one thing to smile about. Recognise it, write it down in your Smile jotter. Then when you are really down you can look back and read what has made you smile in the past and so will hopefully make you smile again. Blessings Jimeka 🦋

[Ali_B62]

LuMed, I don't know what to say to make this better for you but if I was closer I would give you a very big hug so I am sending you lots of virtual hugs.

[Piscesgirl221]

Your not alone, i thought it was jus me...i heard ut was the way the planets were aligning something with the moon n stars? Who knows i sleep all day til i have to get ready for work. Sorry to hear about you not feeling ok. No one understands or wants to. Well thats how i see it. Feel better

[greaterexp]

I do pray that you get on the other side of this very soon. Please do consider talking openly with you doctor about how you really feel.

[Juliew19673]

You must speak openly to your Doctor! They can only help you when you give them the lay of your land.

And NEVER apologize to us here - it really is the 1 place you can go to, to vent openly, without Judgement, but expect lots of sympathy and suggestions.

You sound like a very motivated individual - you can concur this hiccup!

[LuMed79]

Thank you everyone. I woke up feeling a little better. Not great but better so hopeful today will be a better day.

[DIsneyQueen]

My heart hurts for you and I will add you to my prayers. It is easy to get depressed with this disease. I used to be very athletic and I can now only walk short distances with a walker. What has sustained me and gotten me through is my faith. I am not where I want or thought I would be at this point in my life, but I am right where God wants me. I believe that he did not bring me this far in my life, through everything I have been through to leave me here. I hope this is just a bad day for you and it gets bett. Please know you are not alone and are in my thoughts and prayers

[Guava69 in reply to DIsneyQueen]

Wonderful ☺️ I've been humming those words in my head today. "I don't believe He's bought me this far to leave me" wonderful affirmation. Thank you

[villagegirl107]

Oh LuMed79! Im sorry you are having THAT kind of day! I wish I could come pull you up out of the well! Just know you are NOT alone. We are all here seperataly , but together in this fight with you.I see that lid open more and more often. I try to pay attention because Im so afraid of falling down the well of depression. I find sometimes it helps to have a really good cry, but not about yourself. Try whatching Terms of Endearment or Steel Magnolias. Both are super good movies and ones that will have you bawling. Get it all out! There will be more later but I always feel cried out after one of those movies! Also youtube videos can be very helpful, try unlikely animal friends, or dog/owner renunions. they will make you feel good and hopefully distract you from your sadness for a while. Good luck and remember we are always here giving you a virtual hug! A friend in the fight, Shelley

[sashaming1]

MS has a high percentage of people with depression (more than people with other serious diseases). Brain issue? Situation issue? Whichever it is, it's a bummer!