A new symptom?? Life isn't boring, that's for sure!! My new resolution was to laugh at everything instead of responding with anger. Well, here goes nothing! I was ANGRY!! But then I remembered!! Having a nice convo with daughter on cell phone, with morning coffee (well, that's "my morning" at 6:30 pm cause pain had kept me awake all night which meant sleep all day), coffee 3/4 gone, lukewarm (important to story). She said bye (arrived at work as RT at Univ of Tol H), laid phone down, picked up coffee cup, and WHAMO!! An MS moment! Have you ever had your foot battle with the air for a place to put it down on the floor? Who is going to win - the air or the foot? If the air wins, you fall!!! If the foot wins, you remain upright!! Well, never had that happen with my right hand. It had a battle with the coffee cup. I wanted my fingers to grasp the handle of the cup. My fingers wanted to play with the air making sign language to its shadowy friend, and refused to grasp the handle. As happens with the crowd in this group, our communication brain nerves are not a winning bunch of heroes; specifically, they are the underdogs, a bunch of loses who have lost their myelin clothing running around naked. So, the coffee cup goes splat***###%%%^^^ on my nice red Christmas tablecloth I have been negligent in removing and packing away til December. STOP! LOOK! WHAT!! As usual, my reaction time is zero! I look at coffee on my clothes, coffee on tablecloth, coffee on paperwork I was reading, coffee on oatmeal bars I was eating - and coffee on my coffee colored phone. What do I do? Mmmm......what is important here? My autonomic nervous system never kicks in (especially if I burn myself!) - I just stare for about a million nanoseconds! Did I say my pink phone is now brown? Brown phone. Mmm......BROWN PHONE!!!!! NOT RIGHT!!! Grab phone and rub off on pajama top quickly, dry quickly, rice needed? soaked? does it work? make a phone call? panic? scream? anger? is this gonna be a daily happening? can I not hold a coffee cup anymore????? NO - don't take that pleasure away from me, too!!! I'm not ready yet!!!
Phone works, pajama top covered in coffee stains, along with red tablecloth. Papers were just junk mail I was going through, and I will fix another cup of coffee and USE BOTH HANDS! First rule, find another way to do what I want to do, or gracefull enjoy the memories of what I once did. I may not backpack again, but I am enjoying my second cup of coffee, holding it with two hands!!! Ya'll have a creative day, you hear now? God bless each and every one, because He will!!