MY OCD IS RUINNING MY LIFE

[OCDWAR]

Hi guys, I am overwhelmedto the point where i stopped doing everything in my day i just sit and wait for the normal urges to come again feeling overwhelmed and sad. I wanna share my OCD suffering, I don't even know what theme it is, I am doubting my normal urges to do things (like everyday activities or everything) doubting if they are normal urges or related to someone else (my sister) I feel like having these urges is related or tied of my sister and I started to avoid everything I do like for example checking my phone, or everything that comes to my mind. For example if I am watching something I feel like focusing on it its related to her. And I avoid it.

[Pepito21]

I am very sorry to hear this. You’re obviously in pain and I understand your desperation. I was in a similar situation some days ago. It is getting a bit better nowadays. What did I do to improve that situation? I started doing everything I wanted to avoid. When I do those things, many intrusive thoughts and feelings visit my mind, but I keep doing what I am doing and I have that annoying ocd voice as a background, as if it was a radio channel. If I didn’t start doing that, I would be worse this week. I got to the point of crying in public spaces (hiding my face or eyes from the crowd) and I knew I had to do something about it. Please, keep living your life and eventually that voice will be lower and lower. OCD is like a radio channel. Sometimes you’re able to hear it. And when OCD says something you’re interested in, you’ll turn the volume up and up. You’re doing that to yourself right now. Turn it down. Have it as a background. Don’t care about what you feel or think, don’t pay attention to it. Keep going on. It’s always hard at the beginning, but we can do it!

[OCDWAR in reply to Pepito21]

I really appreciate ur support and time given to answer my post thank u so much ! I will try to do what u said to me

[beth196 in reply to Pepito21]

Hi,

Do u take Meds? My OCD was so bad and prozac didn't work or buspar. I had to go on 40mg lexapro for 3 months with klonopin. Now I'm on Lexapro 30mg and .375mg klonopin. I would love to not need meds but my OCD controlled me. I wasted 6-9 months of my life on my OCD. OCD will control you if you let it. The thoughts were with me every waking hour and wouldn't leave me alone.... Only fellow OCDers realize what this disorder will do to you. It still tries to make me not trust my judgement on the same thing over and over again. It's a broken loop. Stay busy and get on some meds, it really helps. I'm here for you.

[OCDWAR in reply to beth196]

I want to recover but it's hard in my case . I didnt want to take meds cuz a lot of ppl said it doesn't help. What do u think ? I hope u get well, I lost more than months in OCD, it's 10 years living with OCD ...

[beth196 in reply to OCDWAR]

Meds definitely help/ I've been on meds for 30 years. You need them. Get on some lexapro you're wasting your life with this biochemical disorder. People who don't have OCD don't struggle like this with thoughts controlling them.

[OCDWAR in reply to beth196]

Should I take any dosage ?

[TrueBlue23 in reply to Pepito21]

Great reply and very insightful! 👍

[beth196]

speak to your Psych . sometimes you need higher dosages to control OCD

[OCDWAR in reply to beth196]

I should then wait until I start my job (5months or less) cuz I cannot afford a psychologist or psychiatrist

[beth196 in reply to OCDWAR]

go to a clinic or a gp. They can start you on lexapro

[IStillHaveHope]

I'm so sorry that you're struggling right now. I really am. I've been in the same position as you where OCD controlled my life. Know that, even though it might not feel like it, you can get better. I was like you as well and didn't want to take medicine, but let me tell you the first time it started working I broke down and cried. For the first time in my life I could, "ignore" the thoughts a bit. It was literally life changing.

For the longest time I thought that I could handle OCD myself, but that was a mistake. Once I found a psychiatrist and therapist who specialized in OCD things got so much better. It's important to find people who specialize in it since other therapies can be unhelpful or even counter productive.

I don't know if this helps but I put together a post a while ago for those just starting out. Maybe you can find some use from it: healthunlocked.com/my-ocd/p...

I really hope you find the peace you deserve my friend. May God bless you.

[OCDWAR in reply to IStillHaveHope]

Thank u so much for ur positive vibes and hope, ur nickname is true. I will check ur post. And I will try to find a good therapist and psychiatrist as soon as I could afford it.