Hello! I have a question, this started 5 years ago, my mother is the most important person in my life, one random day a thought popped up in my mind (using slangs for my mother) I felt extremely guilty and used to cry about it all the time, with time and asked for forgiveness from god. I didn’t share it with anyone. At one point, I felt even if I was doing it, if I ask for forgiveness, I will be forgiven.
Now I feel that I am a sinner and I will go to hell or my next life will be a bad one because of deliberately thinking these thoughts (mentally using slangs) for my mom. Quotes related to Karma keep on popping on my IG feed, which I feel is a sign from the universe.
I am unable to love her the way my sister does. I’m Unable to love her because my thoughts about her are not pure. My feelings have changed. Would that still be considered OCD? She hasn’t done anything bad to me and tries to help me in every way possible.
Any response would be highly appreciated