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[Heartlan]

I am sorry for all who suffer. I’ve been ok then not ok and am starting a new medication tommorow. Sometimes I know the thoughts are just thoughts and other times I end up going down the rabbit hole. I am taking anti anxiety meds and am starting something new tomorrow. I am uncomfortable about it because I felt I should be stronger. I didn’t know that so many people out here are having a difficult time. I m taking the med hoping it will get me to where I need to be. I didn’t recognize how many have this. Please may we all get the help we need. Part of me feels like I should have done better. Part of me is scared of a new med. it’s awful to hurt. Hang in there and talk to your drs if you can.

[IStillHaveHope]

Hello and welcome!

I know how you feel. OCD and guilt go hand in hand. We are not out thoughts though. Or actions define us and you are brave for facing the fears and taking action to get better. I hope you find what you're looking for here.

Good luck with your new medication (I know how scary it can be to start) and keep us posted with any questions or progress!

[Heartlan in reply to IStillHaveHope]

Yes it does feed the fear for sure. And mental arguments

[Precious2023]

I pray you recover totally and feel better with your medication. The doubt and false guilt can be draining, awful, exhausting and distressing. We feel helpless and hopless with each OCD episode but without it we are full of life again like every other person.Cheers!

[Heartlan in reply to Precious2023]

Yes it makes you doubt your sanity, and the thoughts may be just thoughts but it doesn’t feel that way. Thank you, the medicine will start slowly and I’ve been a nervous wreck all night . And this may help but it’s nerve wracking trying something new. May all find healing and some peace. I never knew so many suffered. Guess I felt like the odd man out. To have weird thoughts about so many things. I can remember when I didn’t but, thanks for the support, and may we all win this battle.

[Lauragbr]

I hope the new med helps you. Your description of how you are feeling is familiar to me and many others here. There is help. I wonder if you have an OCD therapist to help you with cognitive behavioral therapy? That is also key.

[Mcfly64]

Good luck 🙏You will be fine.