Is anyone like me?

[iloverain]

Two recent examples got me thinking:

1. Is there something wrong with my brain? (But actually I went to Chang Geng to see the cranial nerve three times, but I didn’t say anything about it)

2. Or is it because of my habitual obsessive-compulsive disorder that prevents me from remembering? (Actually, this is also a brain problem)

3. Or maybe I actually remember, but my obsessive-compulsive disorder habit makes me not trust myself, which also affects my memory?

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first example)

I met my elder brother when I was taking out the garbage. After struggling, I asked him anyway. I asked him for the first time and he said he was right, but I seemed to want to make sure he was right, so I said, "Did you just say it right?"

The eldest brother said: Yes.

I pushed the car back to the company and wrote it down on my phone, but then I started to wonder, was this the second time I asked?

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Second example)

9:33 At the bar on the first floor, I explained to A: Because when the coffee machine was turned off before, hot water would be flushed into the pipe. Now when it is turned off, sometimes the hot water will not be flushed into the pipe. That’s why I will pick it up after you finish making coffee. It's not hot water flushing the pipes, let me tell you something.

A said: OK (there was confirmation in the toilet at 10:00, which means: OK).

Note: At 10:00, I told A again in the girls’ restroom on the first floor. Wanting replied: OK.

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After I asked the question for the first time, I wrote it down on my phone, but not long after that, I suddenly thought, did A answer "ok" the first time?

Later I asked, and A said he answered "yes". Then he asked a second time, and recorded it on his phone. But not long after, he suddenly thought, did A say "yes" the second time?

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These two examples are all about taking notes, but they also generate doubts and uncertainties. I hope someone can shed some light on them and share them.

1. Is there something wrong with my brain? (But actually I went to Chang Geng to see the cranial nerve three times, but I didn’t say anything about it)

2. Or is it because of my habitual obsessive-compulsive disorder that prevents me from remembering? (Actually, this is also a brain problem)

3. Or maybe I actually remember, but my obsessive-compulsive disorder habit makes me not trust myself, which also affects my memory?

[Mom2DnJ]

sounds like OCD. Taking notes seems like feeding OCD and it will just keep asking you to feed it more. You have to set limits…only one time reassurance and that’s it! You are the boss of you…OCD is not the boss! 👍

[iloverain in reply to Mom2DnJ]

But I rarely hear people like me, there are very few resources in Taiwan

[Mom2DnJ in reply to iloverain]

It must be tough struggling with no support. There are some things you can try if you haven’t already…you can find workbooks online. You can follow OCD therapist on Instagram. Maybe NOCD online therapy is available there. You can join a support group on the iocdf website. You can listen to OCD therapy podcast and you can search the iocdf website for videos and articles. Sending love 💕