dreams, fake arousal?

[G0ldenwr0ught]

I’ve struggled in the past a lot with both dreams and fake arousal, but recently my groinal responses have started to feel different, and i’m scared.

Usually, my groinal response is just a small movement. For a long time, it was terrifying and i would go into panic attacks because of it, but after a while i learned to almost ignore it. Now, i feel like it’s morphed into something that’s indistinguishable from real arousal, and i’m terrified again.

I just woke up from a dream where a person that my OCD has latched onto touched me, and i immediately woke up, having one of these reactions in my half asleep state. It’s like an extreme hyper awareness in my groin and lower stomach that turns into something tangible, almost warm, and eventually something will happen, like a muscle will move or clench, and then the panic sets in. I’ll feel myself start to sweat and overheat, my heart rate speeds up and i feel shaky. i hate it. i hate how sick i feel.

I tried to doze off again, knowing i was going to wake up and feel sick over it again later, but there wasn’t anything i could do. i dozed off, and then the thought/awareness of what happened hit me at sone point between asleep and conscious, and the entire feeling hit me again, as intense as ever if not more so.

I sat there, fully awake, putting all my focus into thinking about the touch that occurred in the dream and monitoring my groinal area’s reaction, but the more i did this, the more aroused i felt.

Logically i know that by this point i’ve basically pavlov’d myself into having these responses, but i’m so scared. I don’t want any of this. I can’t tell what’s real anymore and i’m so, so scared.

[Piyush_17]

I too get groinal response. What you need to know is you cant get it out of your awareness but your can control your attention no matte how hard it feel at that moment to loose your attention from there but you have control over your attention. What I do is Whenever my attention goes there I dont try hard to put my attention somewhere else thats distraction and will make things worse instead try just loosing your attention from there. Let it be in your awareness just losse your attention from it and you can do this ever if you feel you cant at that moment.

After sometime you will find that it will leave your awareness.

If your attention come back down there you know the drill.

Just repeat this again and again. And you will find that you will be less feared from this response.

[WildernessMAn]

GoldenwrOught Wisdoms Warning here. We can get confused by such matters. Our Delusional thinking can interpret things going on in the Mind-Body Connection and not have a Right Understanding of what's actually happening on the inside of our lives due to the malady in our minds. We can erotisize our hidden rage. Where their is CONFUSION there is a Delusion in the midst. The deceived mind is not telling the truth here.