I've been with my partner for 7 + years and we're getting married in around 5 weeks. For a long time ( over 2 years) I've been ruminating about something I did that I know was wrong and would have upset my partner. It has stuck in my mind and gives me a sense of unease. Not all the time; Sometimes I can reason with myself and logically accept that what I did was wrong and accept that I am human and it's normal to make mistakes. I then feel like I've nipped the anxiety in the bud and can put the matter to bed. Other times though, something will happen and the thought comes back with a vengeance and I feel like I have to go through the same reasoning process again to try and take that feeling of anxiety away.
As our wedding is getting close now I'm having moments of anxiety again, and even though I know I have reasoned it out in my head a thousand times I still feel the need to reason it all out again in order to reassure me that I can get married and I'm worthy of marrying my partner.
I have felt the need to confess these indiscretions to my partner, but having read lots of posts and articles I'm pretty sure that's not the right thing to do. Now my wedding is getting close though I think my OCD is going in overdrive and at times I feel like just confessing the whole damn lot!
I would appreciate any comments or thoughts readers may have, although I'm conscious I'm looking for reassurance so in some ways it's self defeating!