OCd worse stuck in loop

[beth196]

I called my Pscyh and went on 30mg of lexapro from 20 with .5mg clonazepam and I feel like I'm happy again. I couldn't stop obsessing. it was like 7 gerbils going around in my brain at once. I usually stay on 20mg but it wasn't enough for now. Has 30 mg worked for anyone else? I hate meds but I feel like I'm back in control and can let thoughts slide away instead of stuck in my brain. relief at last. I will slowly get rid of the clonazepam and only use it PRN

[BrunoWayne]

I share your attitude towards meds, sometimes I hate that I need them to feel normal. But I'm really glad it is working and helping you find relief, I would focus on that. The analogy my mom always made to me, and sometimes I didn't always accept it- was that "diabetics don't hate themselves for needing insulin, so why should you be mad you have to take a pill for OCD?". Not sure if that helps but just remember whatever helps you live your best life is the best option for you

[Phoenyx in reply to BrunoWayne]

A friend of mine did the same comparison and ever since I have a different opinion about meds. Though it never bothered me that I’m going to be on meds all my life, it bothered my mom. She convinced me I can do it without them and I ended up in a horrible OCD episode.

[BrunoWayne in reply to Phoenyx]

That sounds really difficult, I’m sorry you went through that. It must be tough to not have that support and understanding from your mom. I hope she can realize that if it makes you happy and live a better life (and doesn’t harm anyone else) then it’s undoubtedly a good thing

[Raider916]

So glad to hear that something has helped you feel better. Thats important, meds are not. I was on the same dose for both meds, but didnt get much relief. Meds work different for everyone. If you find yourself in a good place on them after a while, you can always try reducing the dose again. Being able to dismiss thoughts is so helpful! Ive usually had a sling shot effect with clonazapam. Works for a few hours, then the next day I get a lot of anxiety.

[Phoenyx]

The most important thing is to be able to feel like yourself again.

For years I was on 10 mg Lexapro and worked great for me. I was able to stop it for 6 months and had a horrible OCD come back. Ever since, I am on 15 mg and every time I try to lower it back to 10 mg I start having severe anxiety. I know meds free sounds great but if they work as good as they do for me, choose a normal life than a life with OCD.

You will eventually stop the clonazepam and stay only on Lexapro. I know a lot of people worry about getting hooked up on Clonazepam but I have never had an issue with it.