Irrational worry.

[Dempsey1919]

Hi all, I'm aware of I'm not supposed to ask reassurance, but does anyone have blasphemous ocd. Obviously God does not control people's minds,there's 8 billion people in the world that's alot of minds to control but I worry that I'm not in control of my own mind and thus not being in control of thoughts. Even saying that now and saying I'm incontrol of my own mind makes me very anxious. I have anxiety that God is going to make me do something sick or make me ask sick questions and think of sick answers. I worry that he's going to make me into some sick monster. I worry I won't have any control of my mind. I feel silly even worrying about this,God is good and would never make me do or say sick things but I worry that I have to punish myself just for saying I'm in control of my thoughts. Obviously I'm not in control of thoughts that pop into my head or my subconscious thoughts but I'm in control of what I think of and my conscious thoughts but I worry God is going to make me do something sick or think something sick or I worry I have to think something sick or do something sick as a compulsion for saying I'm in control of my thoughts. Its silly god won't make me do or think anything sick and he would not want be to suffer doing sick compulsions. Sorry for long wtite.

[LuvSun]

Hi Dempsey1919- I think you answered your own questions in regards of your thoughts coming from God. I don’t think God would make you have these bad thoughts. I believe God only wants you to be a good person and is making you question yourself to see that he/she only wants what’s in your best interest.

[Dempsey1919 in reply to LuvSun]

What do you mean making me question myself,does that mean God asking me to question myself or me lol. As you can see I'm a little anxious lol.

[LuvSun in reply to Dempsey1919]

Sorry if my reply was a bit confusing. I just meant to say that God is not causing you to have these thoughts- it’s the OCD that is causing them. God may be giving you the insight to really see that. Hope that makes more sense.

[Dempsey1919 in reply to LuvSun]

Thank you

[SCC1]

Hi Dempsey1919. I have similar issues with god thoughts.

I believe he is controlling my thoughts, ESP when I'm going through a OCD episode. It feels like he is controlling ME. I feel he will punish me if I don't do a thought compulsion right. Like he's in charge of how I think.

I go through this every day and a lot of the day. It is very hard to feel that you are being condemned for thinking your thoughts the wrong way.

I have felt that he was actually GIVING me thoughts that I was responsible for getting right or rid of (through compulsions, mainly thought compulsions).

It's a very heavy load to carry; dread. I feel like everything depends on my reaction to a thought. It's a horrible way to live.

It can happen with or without a OCD episode, anytime really, but more with an episode.

Just wanted to share and hopefully let you know, that you are not alone in this.

Take care xx

[Dempsey1919 in reply to SCC1]

Thanks,I'm not even a deeply religious person I have never even read the bible. Its just a worry that my own ocd mind have created. I believe in God but don't know in which way,I follow through Christianity because it is loving and forgiving. If there is a god,surely he would not let me have sick thoughts on purpose that is not good and god is good. Of course we control our own mind its silly to think that anything else can control it. But I'm so scared of saying in my head I'm in control of my conscious thoughts because I fear god will punish he by thinking sick thoughts or I should do certain thoughts to punish myself. It's obsurd god is good he wouldn't want me to suffer but the more I avoid,the stronger my ocd becomes.

[SCC1 in reply to Dempsey1919]

I think if you avoid the thoughts or do the compulsions, that makes the OCD stronger. From what I've read on this forum, people have said when you have an intrusive thought or another type of OCD thought, instead of doing a compulsion or avoiding it, you should sit with the uncertainty of if the thought will happen. (I might have this wrong, but I think it's the right way to put it.)

Feel the anxiety from the thoughts, and let it "sit" and don't do a compulsion/avoid. The thought will go away and nothing will have happened.

It's hard to just accept the thoughts without doing a compulsion, but if you do the behavior, it reinforces the OCD, and it will be harder to be able to let go of thoughts.

The more we let go of them by not doing the compulsions, the less time they will stay in our minds, and eventually we will be able to live without the $#!+ that is OCD!

[Dempsey1919 in reply to SCC1]

Yes I've read that aswel,thank you. I will never put a thought on my head on purpose I have intrusive thoughts come in my head anyway. Ile just notice them and try not to give on to the compulsion.

[PaperTigers]

You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you- Isaiah 26:3

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope

- Jeremiah 29:11

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.

- John 14:27

Does that sound like a God that would give you sick thoughts? No my friend... God LOVES you and wants the best for you. He cares deeply for your well-being and even though you're struggling you can count on Him to be there with you every step of the way, not as your adversary but as your heavenly father, brother and friend. That's who Jesus is. He will never, ever abandon you. The last thing He would EVER do is inflict harm. Yes, we face trials and they can hurt but God is not spiteful nor cruel. He is kind and patient and compassionate. Please, be patient with yourself too. I know this is hard. I promise you, He loves you more than we could possibly imagine.

[Dempsey1919 in reply to PaperTigers]

Thank you that helps.

[Precious2023]

taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ” (2 Corinthians 10:5). Reprogram your mind and release yourself from captivity. This is how you unleash your full potential and free yourself up to then help other men rise to do the same.

The solution is twofold but straightforward. First, identify Christ’s thoughts on a matter, and secondly, align your own thinking under the rule of His truth.

Then the truth will set you free (John 8:32).

[Dempsey1919 in reply to Precious2023]

Thank you

[Mcfly64]

Hello Dempsey. Part of my ocd is scrupulosity ocd. The more you try and reason and analyse these thoughts is exactly what the ocd bully wants you to do. You are a good person and I know it’s hard but you need to try and have some self compassion. Remember God loves you and always will. I know exactly what you are going through. You are not alone. Are you seeing a therapist?

[Dempsey1919 in reply to Mcfly64]

Thank you. Do you worry God controls your mind aswel and that God is controlling your mind and nor you.

[Mcfly64]

I think you need to see a therapist if you are not

[Dempsey1919 in reply to Mcfly64]

I'm on a long waiting list,it takes ages in Britain.