Responsibilities

[Reader_]

Whenever I have a priority and some other task or responsibility comes in between that no matter how small the task is I start to worry why I have to do it only when I need to give my full attention to something more important,even if that task is just going outside and buying grocery. It's just that I don't want to do it. Being lazy and irresponsible is one thing but what I worry about is if I do that task then my focus from what I m prioritizing will get shift and I'll get distracted.

This problem is specific , I couldn't find perfect words to explain it so don't know if anyone can relate or even if this has to do anything with OCD.Also there are a lot of 'I's' in the above passage which led me to think I overthink myself too much and am self obsessed. 😅

[helloworld22]

Are you so focused on getting things right that the big task becomes painful? The revision and re-revision, the checking and te-checking, and doubt, are painful? So a small task, with less pressure, is appealing to work on?

[Reader_ in reply to helloworld22]

Yes, but this wasn't the case before. When i knew i need to focus on something keeping every distraction aside i would do it successfully.Now when i tell myself "ok now i need to focus 100% on this thing" I make that "thing" so important that i start to succumb under it's pressure.