Major down can't get out

[Skjones]

I can't get out of this hole I'm so down. I feel unloved, unneeded, alone empty like I don't want to be alive I find happiness in nothing. Like my life is nothingness I can't get help cause I can't afford it I have a good paying job but with bills and debt I do t qualify because they say I make too much and even the sliding scale is against me meds only do so much I keep researching techniques but nothing is helping. Today we are celebrating my grandsons birthday ... well my wife's grandson as far as her son is concerned I'm just the guy who married his mom but I love them but I'm scared to go home I can't deal with people right now I can barely handle work

[PaperTigers]

Sending up prayers that you soon find hope. I promise you have a purpose, I know it looks dark right now but know that it's not going to be this way forever, if one thing is certain it's that things change and perhaps brighter days are on their way. Please be strong.

[outtasnacks97]

Ill be keeping you in my thoughts today, there is always a chance to take steps forward and i believe in you finding that for yourself

[worriedmom3]

Your post made me cry. Surely you are a good man, but you can’t see it. The fact that you love your wife’s son and grandson is evidence ( and for the record, the best grandfather my children ever had is their “step grandfather”). Feeling needed is so important, but sometimes the signs that you are can be subtle; there might not be fireworks, but maybe you are at that steady soul who can be counted on for kindness and reliability. It sounds as though you are profoundly depressed at this moment.Do you have a therapist? Do you have a friend to talk to? You are so young, be strong, advocate for yourself. You reached out to this forum, now take another step, and let us know how it goes.

[Reader_]

Every person is unique and that uniqueness should be liked or loved bcoz as the name suggests there's no one like you in the world. Don't bother yourself with what others think or sees of you. Be with people who'll make you feel needed.

[Truename12]

I am glad you are reaching out. When I feel really low I know that I need more sleep. Sounds like you are taking care of everyone else. How do we ask for others to be there for us? That can be intimidating. I study Buddhism, and it helps me. I listen to Thich Nhat Hanh's talks on Youtube. Best wishes and please keep checking in here.