I’m really starting to give up on myself. I’m currently stuck in an OCD state that I can’t seem to break out of.
Nothing feels real, my heart is overwhelmed with pain and I experienced an anxiety attack today.
I have tried to get up and do things, but there’s no joy. I haven’t eaten or showered in 2days, losing weight as quickly as I do makes me hate looking at myself. I feel like a zombie and I don’t understand why or how I got here.
So exhausted. Every time I try to talk about this illness with family and so called friends, they get mad, tell me I’m horrible for how I treat them and don’t speak to me for weeks.
My boyfriend doesn’t allow me to use the OCD as an excuse. He treats me like I have the ability to shake it off. I’m so tired. I’m so tired. I’m so tired.