Szesophrenia OCd

[Halka1991]

Hello everyone . I have severe Szesophrenia Ocd , But. for the last few days it’s been severe fear of harming someone and loosing control . It’s last all day long I don’t get any breaks. It’s like I get few ok days and than it’s gets so bad Again worst than before , why is that ? When you having ok day after that it feels worst than before. People with Szesophrenia OCd or harm OCD do they only have fear of them ? Or they experience some symptoms and than they think they have Szesophrenia? For me it’s the symptoms I am getting and than I am think I am developing phycosis or szesophrenia. I have feelings of loosing control and hurting someone and the feelings are so real the urges so strong like I’ll act on it any minute. Like today all day I was feeling on edge with harm urges and Images , was so close of loosing control and it scares me so much I don’t want those feelings . How do I do ERP for that when my mind is consumed with those feelings all day long . Please help me

[Anonymous00010001]

I experience the same feelings with my own obsessions. It's something I still struggle with even after therapy. Therapy has helped me immensely, I want to make a firm point of that, it has allowed me to recognize and manage my obsessions. But I still give in to my compulsions a few times, it always happens when I feel like I'm loosing control, and when they've passed I'm wracked with immense guilt. I try my hardest to accept the uncertainty and doubt I feel, I try my hardest to forgive myself for the actions and checking I have done, and I reach out to people in my friend group who are able to support me.

I tend to isolate when my depression and obsessions get really bad. That is a really bad idea, because isolation can make the symptoms worse. If you have someone who is emotionally strong enough to support you, seek them out, and respect their emotional limit when they have had enough.

Exposure and response prevention therapy can be really helpful with the guidance of a therapist. Some therapists might be willing to lower their fees if it is a financial burden, and there are resources on this site that might guide you to someone who can help. It is a really intense experience, and best undertaken with someone who can guide you through the emotionally difficult parts, undertaking it alone when you are emotionally overwhelmed can do more harm than good.

I hope this offers some clarity. Good luck on your journey, I hope you find relief soon.

[LiveandLetGod33]

Hey there Halka1991,First of all, I HEAR you. This sounds very scary and I urge you to believe that you are not alone. I have complex OCD, and not Schizophrenia OCD, and that's hard enough! I can only imagine what you're enduring on a daily basis. That being said, you are so brave. You absolutely can get better. It'll take time but you can do it for sure. Maybe look into medication, breathing techniques, therapy, any and all of it. One step at a time, and reward yourself. We are here for you.

[Halka1991 in reply to LiveandLetGod33]

Thank you 😊