Do you all think this is OCD? It's related to false memories, kind of

[rdeschain90]

Hello all,

I have suffered from OCD, C-PTSD and anxiety for forever.

I have been doing ok recently despite the pandemic, but recently I’ve been having “flare ups” with OCD and intrusive thinking. Due to PTSD a lot of the obsessions I’ve dealt with have been sexual in nature, and I’ve been hyper vigilant about all things sexual in my life and combing through memories looking for things that may have happened to me (in adddition to the real, tangible memories that I know are real)

A lot of them revolve around my dad unfortunately. I have done a good job at not seeking reassurance with my family for the past few years, because talking about this stuff was really mentally draining and we had a lot of arguments and crying about everything.

So yesterday something triggered a memory. I remember using MySpace years ago and I remember they had a feature of your childhood hero’s or something. Now this is where I have the memory\false memory. I remember definitely having the conversation with my dad in the computer room about his hero’s or idols or people he wants to meet. For some reason, I am convinced that I was setting up a MySpace account for my dad, although he was never on MySpace. So automatically my mind said he must have been setting up a MySpace account to creep on people,which is stupid because why would he go through me to set up an account if he was planning on doing that? Is it possible that it was for something completely different? Why would my mind make this MySpace connection?

A big part of my symptoms is confessing my obsssions to my parents specifically. I am very tempted to do this right now, but I don’t see what that can accomplish other than me crying or my parent’s feeling bad. I doubt my dad remembers it, as it was probably a very insignificant event. What would you recommend I do? Why would my mind make such a weird connection if it wasn’t real? Should I confess my obsession to get closure? Are there any positives to trying to unravel this? Even if it was real is it something that I should harp on and hinder my relationship with him? I had been doing so well.

[PassionateWoman]

Just think 'Peace...... Be still'

Write about it as if you were writing to your parents. Then hold onto it...... Til your ready to let it go..... Then shred it as you give it to your higher power. God.