Suicidal OCD - My Brain Won't Stop Thinking Of Suicide

[ocdandanxiety]

Suicidal OCD is a topic of OCD that many struggle with. An individual can have intrusive thoughts of suicide. This doesn't mean they are suicidal; but rather OCD causes extreme fears and doubts. It even will mingle these intrusive thoughts this with anxiety; making it feel very real and scary for the person suffering.⠀

youtu.be/bayQ4zAtJBM(Not working as expected?)

Suicide is a real thing. Here is the national suicidal hotline.⠀

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DISCLOSURE: Although I am a licensed therapist. This video is not intended to replace medical advice. This is for information purposes only and should not be used to replace the guidance of a local mental health professional.⠀⠀

[Ladybug9]

I have suicidal ideations all the time. I won't act on the thoughts but it's really frustrating to have those thoughts running through my mind all the time! I never looked at is as an OCD issue. thank you

[ocdandanxiety in reply to Ladybug9]

I'm glad I was able to help. 👍🏻

[Ladybug9 in reply to ocdandanxiety]

I will have to talk to my Therapist in 2 weeks as how they fit together. I hope you are having a good evening!

[snowy00 in reply to ocdandanxiety]

could u help me

[Mama_Bear_x2]

I struggle with this and I feel like it is textbook OCD but my therapist does not think I have OCD. I literally obsess all day about it and do research and watch videos for reassurance. I feel like if I don’t find someone that understands this, that can help me, I’m going to get sucked further in. I want to learn to beat this, manage it, not let it control me. I have not had any luck finding a specialist near me.

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madeofmillions.com/ocd/suic...

[Laurennnnnnn]

What’s the video called? The link won’t work for me

But omg I can’t thank you enough for posting this. I’ve thought I had suicidal/self harm ocd for a while now but thought it was impossible, and when I brought it up to a therapist she brushed it off. So it’s nice knowing I’m not the only one

[ocdandanxiety in reply to Laurennnnnnn]

The video is at the top. Click on the video. Here is a link:youtu.be/bayQ4zAtJBM(Not working as expected?)

[Laurennnnnnn in reply to ocdandanxiety]

It’s so weird, the link is broken for me :/

[Laurennnnnnn in reply to ocdandanxiety]

But even without the video this makes me feel better haha just knowing it exists

[pass1945]

Wow, I've seen your videos online and they have been super super helpful. I was so mistreated in my last hospitalization, and all I was trying to do was to prevent suicide, which actually gave me a panic attack. But the providers in the hospital told me that i was not working hard enough, and actually made me say that, actually I am suicidal, I am just in denial. For these past three years I have been beating myself up with this statement because my mom died of suicide. I was thinking why would I even have thoughts like this, I must be a monster. But the truth is, I have suicidal OCD more than anything. From the literature that I have read around suicidal OCD, every single symptom fits. I just talked to my therapist today and she couldn't agree more about this. I was just so shocked that in our current healthcare system, no one cares to give people some guidance and help on suicidal OCD. Basically the minute that I say the word "suicide", they would be like, okay go into in-patient, and you are not working hard enough, and you are just a failure, and you are just one of the data points in the statistics. My healing journey starts now...

[ocdandanxiety in reply to pass1945]

Thanks so much for the kind words! I'm so glad to hear that you've gained some clarity! I wish you the best in your healing journey!

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for anyone struggling with this, it's TOUGH! Especially when you don't want to die AND you feel good! For those of you looking for a specialist, try Dr. Steven Phillipsons office in NYC. I am doing online therapy and recently JUST started ERP with this. She works directly with Dr. Steven Phillips and she started me out at like Level 1 this week with an index card. KInda funny, and not, of course I questioned, do you think you have examined me well enough to know that I am not suicidal because of my thoughts, and as she is writing, she looks into her screen and says to me, nonchalant, "Do you want to die?" I immediately said "no!" and she went back to writing her notes and said well there ya go... She must hear this quite a bit.