Mental & Physical Compulsions

I sent an email to my primary care doctor for some health issue.

OCD keeps giving me the anxiety of when will she reply ?

It creates the fear that I cannot focus on anything else, until the reply comes.

I am trying to battle the mental compulsion, of doing other activities, with trying to focus on what I am doing, and just allowing that thought to be there, and sit with the anxiety of it.

OCD then tried to make me do physical compulsions, like checking my email frequently to look for the doctor's reply.

Later I realized the trick OCD played upon me.

It is constant struggle in the brain, trying to juggle with these compulsions.

I just wanted to share what my day has been like with OCD.