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[Ocdstruggler]

Hi I’m new to the site.

I’m just looking for relief! I was diagnosed probably in my early 20s/late teens. I also struggle with depression. I have tried medications but nothing seems to help. One doctor suggested I don’t stay on them long enough but I get horrible side effects. I have had 3 seizures from different medications. One in 2008, 2014, and 2018. All in the Fall. So I’m weary about medications.

One of my biggest problems is I don’t stick with the same doctor for very long because I move a lot. It’s become a way of life. When something goes wrong, I move. I can’t keep a job very long. It affects all my relationships. It is debilitating. My mind is constantly on overdrive, worrying about everything. I need help!

[alyssuh]

Hello. I hope this place can be a good outlet for you to look for advice and express yourself with those who may be going through similar things. That is unfortunate to have seizures with those meds :/ and that it takes a toll on your jobs and relationships

[LuvSun]

Welcome! Have you tried reading any books about OCD? There are so many good self help books out there- all you have to do is search online and a wealth of info will pop up. This has helped me tremendously. You are not alone in this. Also have you ever had any type of cognitive behavior therapy?

[Ocdstruggler in reply to LuvSun]

I do have an OCD workbook. I start it often but then worry I might be doing it wrong. I’ve had a little cognitive behavior therapy but nothing for a good amount of time.

[ChristianWolff]

"Mind on overdrive", I hear you for sure. It can be exhausting. I have moved around quite a bit myself and it wasn't until I came to settle in one place due to health issues that required a stable set of healthcare providers. It's been exactly 5 years now and I am content staying put. OCD may not be curable, but it is manageable with proper assistance. There are a few things that you can do on your own as well, Tai Chi, meditation, mingling with nature, and such. I have also recently found CBD oil products to be of great help calming my mind.

[Wheeloffortune]

Welcome! You’re not alone. I would encourage you to find an ocd therapist. You can google or go to IOCDF’s website for good info. I have found when I get help for ocd it also helps my depression

[dontknow26]

What OCD symptoms do you struggle with? If you don’t mind sharing of course.

[Ocdstruggler in reply to dontknow26]

I believe I mostly struggle with contamination OCD. I hate using public restrooms. My fear is of diseases. I don’t want to get one or give one. I don’t want to hurt someone.

I also check a lot of things. I’m always worried about the stove being left on. Or the water being left on. Or a window open. I make sure the doors are locked. All this checking I believe comes down to the fact that I don’t trust myself or capabilities I guess.

[dontknow26 in reply to Ocdstruggler]

That’s rough, i’m sorry. Therapy would help but can be super uncomfortable. I have more of the “neat freak” OCD. One time a therapist asked me to mess up my living room and just stare at it. HORRIBLE! Not sure that actually helped any, haha. I’ll tell you the one thing that helps OCD... depression! When I am in a bad depression, my OCD is great. When I come out of my depression, there’s the OCD. Can’t win 😜

[Ocdstruggler in reply to dontknow26]

I feel it!