Seeing a counselor tomorrow to understand if this is ocd

[Potatontomato]

I went through neurosis from '15-'18. It dropped off by itself. I thought I was alright. Something Happened last week which has triggered similar behaviors.

If I feel I have offended someone and this someone is a stranger or an acquaintance, I have to ensure things are fine. Maybe this comes from childhood trauma of not wanting conflicts. This kind of stuff had driven me crazy. It has now returned..the thoughts about wanting to apologise to this person is enormous although I said nothing them. I just left a whatsapp group after informing the admin privately. I think something is wrong with me. I feel 'better' only if the other person 'forgives' me. I understand this is a form of approval addiction coupled with OCD and PTSD. I just hope I heal. Feeling lonely that no one understands. And I feel ashamed now to tell about it to my family

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Hi Potatotomato - It sounds like you have real insight into what is going on regarding your anxiety. I'm glad you are able to see a counselor to help you sort it out.

[Potatontomato in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Sunn-E. I am recognising my triggers only now. I wish I had earlier when there were many other occasions..