OCD

[Aleese]

Who can relate? Isn’t this wonderfully put?

I just had to share.....😊

[disneyandme]

Yes! Love this. Thanks for sharing

[Aleese in reply to disneyandme]

‘Disneygirl’ is that a picture of you on your profile? Wow‼️ What a pretty young lady/pretty picture😊

[disneyandme in reply to Aleese]

It is me!! Thanks so much ❤️ this was in Florida last summer. I'm probably gonna end up switching my profile picture back to something generic, for some reason having a picture of myself makes me feel more vulnerable/less willing to be honest with my feelings on here! Silly, oh well. Thank you for your sweet compliment 💕

[Aleese in reply to disneyandme]

Very nice- Your prettiness goes right along with your smartness😊 why change it...

Maybe we all should put up our picture so we know who we are communicating with. You sound like me though, feeling bad...or maybe it’s an ocd thing? Anyway, how’s the 20 year old doing? Thinking of you-

Aleese

[Aleese in reply to Aleese]

-didn’t notice until now...you changed your picture! I’m glad to have gotton at least a glimpse of the ‘Disneygirl😁

[disneyandme in reply to Aleese]

I agree! It'd be nice for everyone to put a picture up - at least for a while. I saw someone else put a picture of themselves, so I thought it was a good idea and gave it a try! Nerves got the best of me though -- not many people in my life know I have OCD other than close friends and family, so I was afraid other people in my life would somehow find this account and read all of my posts. Probably OCD making me overthink it that much, you're right! Maybe I'll change it back someday 🙂

Overall I've been doing well, today and yesterday have been harder for some reason. I'm PMSing (sorry if TMI) and I've noticed in the past this seems to make my OCD worse, so that's probably why. Whenever I'm in a bad mood I tend to over analyze it to the max! It tries to latch on to new obsessions as well but I'm doing my best to try to prevent it.

One of the lies it's been trying to tell me is that my therapist might not know OCD as much as I think and won't be able to help me. OCD loves to make me doubt things -- I've left each therapy session in good spirits, so I have no reason to feel this way. I'm glad Tuesday is coming up again so I can put this one to rest for a while.

Thanks for asking how I am! I hope you've been doing good as well Aleese ❤️

[Aleese in reply to disneyandme]

Hi Disneygirl’

I know how you feel...Chrissy Hodges had a great you tube video about how ocd can fill us with doubt or mistrust about our therapist...” what if they don’t really understand what we are saying or what if we don’t have ocd? etc... But, remember, they are trained in the area of OCD and can see things better than us. I had to learn to not let fear win but, trust my therapist. I think we are a lot alike but in a different age group. It’s nice that you look forward to Tuesday’s, I used to too 😊 Tuesday was quite often my therapy day also. (Mornings). Keep up the great work and try not to over think....That’s where the problem starts.

One day maybe I will put a picture in my profile. I liked yours a lot and will be glad to see it again 😊I don’t believe anyone can find us in this group so no need to worry, I think most all of us would feel ununcomfortable if they could. And, the group isn’t on Facebook so it seems quite safe. Have a sweet sleep and always nice to chat with you : )

Aleese-

[disneyandme in reply to Aleese]

Hi Aleese!

I actually haven't seen that YouTube video yet, I'll have to watch it! Love Chrissy Hodges. Thanks for recommending!

You and I do seem a lot alike 🙂 if you don't mind me asking, how old are you now and what age did OCD start for you? It's so inspiring to see how much freedom you've gotten from OCD. I'm hoping that will be me someday, but because I've had signs of OCD since childhood I worry that I won't be able to get there.

[disneyandme in reply to disneyandme]

Also - is that your dog in your new profile picture? SO cute!! My brother has a Boston Terrier named Benji that comes and stays with my parents and I a lot - he’s here with me now 😊 dogs are so helpful for mental health

[Aleese in reply to disneyandme]

Hi Disney-

You will definitely get there-in great freedom! You had a head start being so young and I was older when I got diagnosed. Just say, I am over twice as old as you😁 I had lots of painful emotional struggles growing up and one big thing was Anorexia and then bul. (Teens-20’s) It was harsh-like an obsession/ compulsion and I would tell God I would stop and even set dates but I just couldn’t. I had to ask for help. ( this is when this problem wasn’t so out in the open back then, I thought I was such a bad person) Anyway, that was the past and glad I’m free from that and the details associated.

Also, yes, that is our beautiful lg. toy/small mini Australian Shepard. I figured she was sorta close to a picture of me, as I feel like I’m part dog ha! She’s a lot of work but what a great dog‼️Emma is her name : )

She was younger in this picture but she’s still adorable and beautiful.

Ps. I’m not sure what a Boston Terrier is-a small dog right?

[disneyandme in reply to Aleese]

Hi Aleese-

My best friend has struggled with anorexia since we were 12 so I'm very familiar with the pain and heartache it causes for the sufferer and those around them. Fortunately she's doing better now, but it's still a battle. I'm very glad you've found freedom from this. A few years ago (and still sometimes) I was very strict about calorie counting, I needed to have the exact right amount of calories a day, and it couldn't even be 1 or 2 off. Other times I used to not be able to eat anything that wasn't deemed "clean" (meaning whole foods). It never turned into an eating disorder and was never about my weight, just a control thing I suppose, maybe to do with my OCD. I'm glad that it doesn't seem to have any hold on me anymore.

Emma is beautiful Boston Terriers are somewhat like French bulldogs if you're familiar with them -- a small dog around 20 lbs.

Have a wonderful rest of your evening, Aleese. Thanks for sharing with me 😁

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So true! I hate OCD.

[trailwalker53]

DEFINITELY!!

[Gnelsen02]

OMG!!! YES EXACTLY