Hi there, i have posted before and was encouraged to follow up my last post as soon as i was comfortable to do another. So since i last posted, myself and my wife attended Relate (councillor service for couples in the UK just incase this is international) which didn't go well to be honest. The general synopsis was that it was all my fault (the councillor's actual words) because i had wasted too much time on the 'wrong' women in the past and hadn't tried hard enough to find myself the 'right' 1. Even though i have always had a problem with confidence and always seemed to end up with women who just wanted a good time and weren't really interested in anything to do with the future. So this was approx 6 months ago and the heartbreak seems to be worse than it was before, not only to i have to deal with the fact that i most probably never be a dad (that's always been my life's ambition), i also have to deal with it being completely my fault and also the fact that i cannot talk to anyone about it. My wife is completely unresponsive to me anytime i try to broach the subject resulting in anger from her toward me and the majority of my friends have moved on as they all have young kids and it must stick out like a sore thumb the fact that i have none of my own. This is on my mind every second of every day and as far as i'm concerned there are only 2 options for me, end it quickly or live with this for the rest of my life in torture. The reason i write this post is not for sympathy for myself as i dont consider that i deserve it, i write it with the last bit of compassion that i have left to try to warn others to seek help as soon as something like this comes to light and seek the right type of help. Please don't do what i did and bur your head and hope that it will sort itself out with time, don't make the same mistakes that i did.