This is my first post on the forum and my first time in sharing my experience. I've gone through nine rounds of ivf all self funded, all of which were BFNs. No clear reason as to why. Our last attempt was October last year. I want to move on but finding it very difficult. Today was particularly difficult. Feelings of being a failure were particularly strong not to mention total sadness. I didn't raise with my husband as find it difficult to talk about with him. Am worried he will start to see me in a different light because i cannot give him children although he has assured me that would never be the case. I feel i have been handed a life sentence, which I finding it hard to live with. I know by reading other posts here i am not alone but still finding it super tough. Where do i begin with alleviating the pain and self doubt?